**// Part 3
♪ Going back to the corner where I first saw you. I’m gonna camp in my sleeping bag I’m not gonna move. ♪
Sometimes, those people who has been in our life the shortest leaves the biggest holes when they left. Sometimes, those people were the ones to bring life to our lifeless lives. Sometimes, they come unexpected, and also leave unexpectedly.
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“Bakit ngayon ka lang? Saan ka nanaman nanggaling? Naglakwatsya ka nanaman? Ano ba naman ba kasi yung sabi kong wag kang magpapagabi sa labas.” Agad na panenermon ng Mama pagkapasok na pagkapasok ko sa bahay. Mukhang wala si Papa. Napagod siguro kay Mama.
Di ko maiwasang mag-roll ng eyes. To be honest, nasasakal ako. Not in a literal way, pero parang ganun na din. My Mom, she’s there when you don’t need her. But when the time comes when you just really need her most, it felt like going on a goose chase in Europe or sa States. Ganun sya kahirap hagilapin. It’s no wonder why Papa just gets tired of her.
“I was just out. Nagpahangin.” Mahinahon kong sabi kahit pa na gusting gusto ko na syang sagutin where I went. I wanted to snap at her. But I couldn’t. Nakakapagod.
“You should have texted me, or nagpaalam ka man lang! Alam mo bang kinakabahan ako tuwing lumalabas ka ng bahay? Na tuwing lumalabas ka, tinatandaan ko kung ano yung suot mo, ano yung dala mo? Kung sino man yung kasama mo?” She rambled on and on. It may seem like she’s paranoid. Pero... Ewan.
“Alright! I heard. Just please shut up already,” I snapped. I reached my temper, di ko mapigilan. It’s a good thing that I don’t get aggressive at home. I’m a sadist. I take it physically when I get mad. I tend to hurt when my temper broke; my Mama is lucky na I did not once I hit her. Ewan ko ba. It feels like I wanna go back to park or follow my Papa. Napapagod ako kay Mama.
Tumahimik si Mama, at ganun din ako. Weird. Pero comfortable. Pumunta ako sa kitchen to see kung anong mang pagkain ang inihanda ni Mama, pero wala so I checked the fridge and oven. But no to avail. I sighed.
As always. I opened the fridge again and inilabas kung ano man ang pwedeng lutuin. And this time, I felt like eating tocino kaya yun nalang ang niluto ko. Nagsaing na din ako. Mukha talagang walang balak na asikasuhin ako ni Mama. Malamang namumugto nanaman ang mata nya habang nanunuod. Not because she’s crying about the show, it was her stupid excuse para maiiyak nya yung pag-aaway nila ni Papa. Lame.
Pagkatapos maluto nung kanin at ganun din ng ulam, nauna nalang akong kumain at nagtira ng sapat para sa kanya. Eventually, she’ll get hungry. Kumain nalang sya kapag gutom na sya. Malas lang nya, gutom na ako kaya di ko na sya sinabayan. And besides, may pasok pa bukas. I need to rest early tonight.
Hinugasan ko yung pinagkainan ko at tinakpan yung natira para kay Mama. Sumilip ako sa sala habang nanunuod si Mama. She was watching, yes. But she’s not listening. Hindi nya iniiintindi yung pinapanood nya, I could tell. Her eyes are blank, same goes with her features. Nakatulala lang talaga. She’s in a deep thought.
I wonder what her letter for tomorrow morning would tell? Na pupunta sya kay Lola or may business trip of some sort. I don’t know. I’d just have to see it for myself tomorrow. But for now, I need to rest. Medyo pagod ako, pero I still feel like I could run a thousand mile. At least, kanina nung umuwi ako, I was in a good mood because of Cold. Now how I wish I could see him again tomorrow. He makes me feel at ease.
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Nandito ulit ako sa park. Haha, wala lang. I came home after school na tahimik ang bahay. Just as I thought, but I didn’t feel like staying in kaya pumunta ako sa park. I’m sitting at the same bench we sat on yesterday.
