STUBBORN HEARTS<3 (complete)

The Wild Cat's Inner Conflicts

Now that I’m left lying here alone in his room, my behavior startled me. It all came down on me.

Aish! Stupid! My mind screamed at me, my hand slapped my forehead. How can I behave that

way? I actually did the first move! I initiated it! I seduced him, kind if, I think. Ugh! Ghad! That

was the pest for crying out loud!

I scowled. I should stop denying it. And I should be satisfied, right? I finally proved one thing:

I’m PHYSICALLY AWARE of him. yes, that’s the best I could come up to describe why I’m

feeling this way, why I behaved that was a while ago. So I guess that’s one question answered,

that’s proof right there. My body is a traitor! I shouldn’t have let myself behaved that way. I

totally acted on impulse. Ugh! Now what would the pest think of me? I groaned. I can’t even

believe I’m capable of responding that way. I mean, I’ve been eternally pulling back when I get

too intimate with someone.

It’s confirmed then. The pest had some weird effects on me, only physically, though. My heart. .

. no, my heart belongs to Wooyoung oppa. I suddenly cringed as I remembered oppa.

Remembering him made me feel a hell lot guilty, bad and I mean really bad. I closed my eyes.

I’m a very bad girlfriend. I’m being unfaithful to him giving in to my body’s needs. Ugh! I hate

myself.

A longing suddenly filled my heart. I missed him bad. It felt centuries ago since the last time I

talked to him, much more saw him. I missed his gentleness, sweetness and his sometimes

aggressiveness. My hands flew to my neck and realized I’m not wearing the necklace he gave

me. Dang it! I’m really an awful girlfriend! If ever I get out of this alive, I promise I’ll make it

up to him. Maybe, it’s a good thing Seohyun arrived before something MORE happened. What I

did and what happened a while ago was a mistake. Probably the BIGGEST MISTAKE in my

life.

I crawled out of bed and quickly ran to my room. From now on, I shouldn’t get too close with the

pest, shouldn’t let my guards down, and shouldn’t let my body betray me again. And above all,

avoid staring at his eyes too long because my body might betray me again, I might throw myself

in his arms too willingly again.

Ugh! How ca he have this power on me? I hate it! It’s totally unfair! I don’t know if I should be

happy now that I finally know I’m PHYSICALLY AWARE of him. But I know that I should

fight that awareness. I went to my room, put on clothes then proceeded to get the necklace and

put it back around my neck.

I heard a knock. I froze. I think I know who that is. Ugh! I just hate how aware I am of him. But

of course, I have no choice. So I went to get the door. His face was anxious as he looked over

me.

“How are you feeling? Are-?”

“I’m fine” I snapped. I saw his eyes narrowed.

“Seohyun bought cards for past time. do you want to join while waiting for dinner?”