This... monster is killing me.
Pulling the breath from my chest,
You dont have to say what I see.
If I run he will follow
If I scream he will laugh.
How did I get into this??
I can't do the math.
The embrace is lovely,
But the fall is not worth the pain.
I started this, now I'm shackled.
I'm chained.
I would ask for help,
for a way or a cure.
But am I really sure
That I don't want this anymore?
Every moment
Slips from my view,
Every thought of us,
Every memory of you.
So if this monster
Steals my pain....
If it mends my heart
Is there something to gain?
I know when I wake up
My heart will again churn,
But it is worth it
If I can watch the world burn.
This is the last time!
I will walk away!
But isn't that the same thing,
I say every day??
The monster, the wretch,
Is laughing in my head
Whispering words of evil,
Of depression, of dead....
I cannot run away
From this esape of mine.
I know it is deadly,
But I will pay the fine.
I am falling into the embrace
This deadly love I found.
I know if I do this,
My eyes won't open the next time around.
