i observed the girl next to me
silky hair flowing effortlessly down her shouldersshe laughed,
her pearly whites showcasingher eyes,
glistening with happiness
glistening with confidenceshe wasn't alone
being surrounded with friends
surrounded by lovereminding me of how lonely i was
she was cheery,
playful
brightsomething, i wasn't
and never will beshe stood up
her figure coming into perfect sightshe was fit
she was curvy
she was pretty
i envied herinsecurities bombard me
flaws surrounded me
emptiness floated mei would never be her
for was i the girl
with too many issues
with too many scarsfor was i the girl
with too many plain features
with too many imperfectionsshe was beautiful
something, I'll never bemy thoughts played tricks on me
drowned me in an ocean of self doubti was on edge
i compared myself to herpicking up my flaws
every time i observed hereverything started to make sense
i was lonely
antisocial
an introverti was, for a reason
for insecurities held me back
held me captive from living life fullyit controlled me
possessed meand at that moment
i couldn't do anything
but feel sorry for myself
as i watched my self esteem
crumble in front of me|insecurities|this was a collab with my friend @mdolxnn ! she is an amazing writer and you HAVE to check out her books
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Wilted
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