You woke up still in hospital still in shock that Niall is gone. You looked in the mirror looking at the dents in your stomach. It was painful to see. You layed your hand slowly on your stomach feeling your baby. You could feel a beat. It was his heart beat. In that moment you became one with your remaining bit of family. You couldn't wait to hold him in your arms. But the bad news just kept coming. The doctor pulled you into a room. And told you what else was wrong with your baby. He said when you smashed down onto the floor that the baby's arms and feet got deformed. And he has a bit of brain damage. You couldn't hold in your tears. You apologized to the doctor. But he said no one is made of stone, its normal to cry. After your and Niall's perfect and healthy baby... was sadly gone. But you didn't care what he looked like you would always love him no matter what. You later on looked back on twitter to see even more hate. But hope was coming through you saw new pages starting to form. Pages saying to stop sending hate to you. At least something good was happening. You went down to the Ultra-sound unit of the hospital to get an ultrasound. You were sad that Niall wasn't there but this was a moment to remember. A couple came out holding hands. It made you think of Niall. She was a directioner. You were nervous that she was a hater of you. But she passed you and whispered in your ear to stay strong. A tear rolled down your face but for once in your life it was tears of happiness. The nurse put that cold gel on your stomach. Your whole body got warm. Even though Niall wasn't alive, breathing, and holding you. The way your body got warm you could tell he was with you. In your heart. The picture of your baby showed on the screen you could see the deformation in his feet and arms. But you didn't care. The nurse said he was beautiful and you agreed. Niall's part in little things started playing in your head. You closed your eyes and Imagined Niall, your baby, and You as one happy family. His voice poped into your head You'll never love yourself Half as much as I love you. You'll never treat yourself right darling. But I want you to
If I let you know That I'm here for you Maybe you'll love yourself like I love you
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