Crying
A quiet pain
Sobbing
A loud misery
This subject
Constantly brought up
But quietly put back inside a box
We've already talked about it
Lots of times
You feel bad
Because I'm hurt
You can't stop that
This liquid that stains my cheeks each week
Is because I love you
My friends don't like you
Your friends don't like me
Why don't we listen?
Why are we so attached to our poison?
I don't know how you feel
But I am suffocating
Drowning in Anger, Betrayal, and Jealousy
Dying from Pain, Abandonment, and Sadness
Why can't I be like them?
What do I lack?
Is it because I was so stupid all those months ago?
I am sorry
I regret it
Every damned minute I talk to you
I regret it more
I hate me for it
I love you
Damn it all I love you
The other boys stung
It hurt
But now these girls
This is going to kill me
When I think about it
My body shakes
In anger and pain
Tears threaten to fall
I no longer can breathe
Why do you do this to me?
How do you get in my mind?
Are you just another fling for me?
If it is...
This is the most painful one
Why do I feel this way?
You are not mine
You made that clear
My twin with benefits
It's killing me
But I refuse to talk about it
I hate have serious conversations with you
I love when we are both happy
When we are just chilling
But something turns up
And I want to cry all over again
Why is there no time machine?
So I don't repeat those damned sins
It's too late
I'm giving up now
I don't want to talk about it again
I am sorry for this poem
But I had to get it out
Had to drain my system
Please
I really don't want to talk
It hurts
Can't be serious with you
I truly love you
Accept that as my answer
Just for a while
