The Witness Protection Program

Chapter 4 Addictions

Chapter 4

Addictions

         I must say that we had a rough start to our marriage. The first year was especially hard with Carter and school. But it did eventually become easier. Then suddenly a couple years later after we both graduated University our relationship wasn’t as strong as we both would like. Logan got into a drinking habit. Let’s be honest here; we didn’t have much of a sexual life. Logan has pretty much lived every day regretting his life choices, and actually going into details with me about it whenever I ask. Honestly it does piss me off but I suppose he’s being honest with me, I respect that. Unfortually Logan managed to actually focus on those flaws instead of the good things.

         I suppose I shouldn’t be the one to talk though. Last year I did accidently had an affair with a random stranger. Now before you judge me I honestly didn’t mean for any of it to happen, I guess I was more upset and lonely with Logan always gone out drinking and complaining. But still, that’s not a good enough excuse and I’ll own up to my mistake, I just can’t admit it to him. I’m sure he would get angry with me, might even leave me. I don’t want this one mistake I made cost everything we’ve ever had since we were kids.

         It’s now ten years later; my little boy isn’t so little anymore. He’s still pretty small but he’s grown up too fast. The saddest part is I still remember the day we brought him home and how I much I already loved him. That can’t even compare to my feelings for my son today. I love him that much more.

I can already tell you that Carter is an amazing child and very intelligent. He absolutely adores going to school and after school he loves teaching Logan and I what he learned that day. The best part I love about Carter is he is very outgoing. He definitely got that from Logan. Lately he’s been practicing his speech he has for English. All he keeps talking about is he wants to blow people’s minds so he can win an award. I honestly believe it’s all in his head but I just go along with him.  

         “Hey babe, I’m home!” I called walking in the door. I threw my bag on the chair and immediately threw my shoes off. I quickly walked around to the kitchen to find it a complete mess, like every other day. I just rolled my eyes and walked to the living room and found Logan passed out on the couch and Carter sitting in the chair watching cartoons.

         “Hi mommy” Carter exclaimed as he stared at me with his huge bright smile. I couldn’t help but smile back. I quickly leaned over to look at Logan’s face, yep he’s asleep. I noticed there were two empty beer bottles on the table. I just picked them up and the plate and took them to the destroyed kitchen. I turned around and found Carter by my hip.

         “What did you do at school today?” I asked him as I quickly rubbed his head messing up his hair.

         “I practiced my story.” He smiled with a lot of excitement.

         “Is it a good story?” I laughed kneeling down next to him.

         “It’s my favorite one.” I couldn’t help but smile. He was just too damn precious. His face was just bright and happy. How could I have raised such a positive little boy considering the way things have been?

         “That’s great. Why don’t you go to your room and play and I’ll call you for dinner.” I watched as Carter quickly picked up a toy off the ground and immediately ran down the hall to his bedroom. Once the door was closed I slowly back into the living room. I walked over and stood right next to Logan. I just stared at him. I can’t believe this is the same boy I married ten years ago. It’s definitely been a rough ten years but aren’t we still the same people as before?