when i was little, i thought that when
you grew up, you became fearless.
and maybe that's partially true, i've
grown up and i'm no longer scared
of the dark, i'm less scared of going
up on stage, and i'm far less scared
of falling and getting myself hurt. but
even though these fears are lesser
or no longer issues at all, new ones
have replaced them and sometimes,
i think that these fears are just as bad
as the ones before, if not even worse.
because even if i'm not afraid of the
dark anymore, right now i'm sitting on
my couch with a blanket over my legs,
listening to seether and staring out the
window pushing off the sense of doom
that seems to be drawing closer to me
every single day. i've used up too many
11:11 wishes and 22:22 wishes just to
see if i can quell this fear back down;
i've tossed coins into fountains, looked
for shooting stars, closed my eyes under
bridges with trains going over them; i've
written far too much poetry and far too
many letters. still the fear plagues me.
no, as grown-ups we aren't afraid of
simple things, like the dark and the cold
and being alone. but we aren't above
fear; nobody is. i am an adult, or at
least i am becoming one, and i know
that i am deathly scared of your love.
YOU ARE READING
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Poetrythe thoughts in my head, however disorganized [warning, it can get heavy.] -- poetry #43 random #86