Mark

did

mark's mother
died when he was
eight
because of a man,
but he acted like he never cared.

mary anne heard
that she used to
beat him.
liam had retorted back that
women don't beat boys
and that only dads do,
but then we saw that
mark was listening,
and we went
silent.

but not because
we thought mark
was dangerous.
because we
cared about mark
and we didn't want him
to hear.
but i think he did.
because maybe if we
hadn't talked,
he wouldn't have done
what he did.

later on,
lauren told me that
mark's mom didn't have a funeral.
mark didn't hear that time.
but i wonder if lauren
would've died
if he did.

i wish
that mark.
was happier
i wish
that everything
could
just
stop.
and
most of all,
i wish
that i still
didn't love mark.

before everything,
mark told me in secrecy
that he hated his mom,
and then he started crying.

but back then
he was only an ink-haired
and electric-eyed
boy
who was sad
and guilty.

he wasn't
a monster
who killed children
in the night.