Discord (Lesbian Story)

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A/N: This took forever to update, but hey it's an update none the less but it is kind of short. But it's still something.

VIII.

"You can't hide away from me forever, Amanda." Rebecca sighed when I shut the bathroom door in her face to put a wall between us, not wanting to look at her when she tried to get me to open up to her and talk.

"Oh I can and I will," the frustration evident in my voice when I locked the door to make sure she couldn't get in.

"Amanda, unlock the door, please." Her voice unusually calm when she rattled the door handle in an attempt to open it.

"How did you even get into my house?" ignoring her please as I asked her a question, my hand resting on the sink as I leant on it. Trying to fight the urge to do anything stupid, tightening my grip around the porcelain basin to keep me in place.

"Your front door was open, now please unlock the bathroom door so we can talk." The stress starting to rise in her voice the more she pleaded, "Amanda, unlock the door."

"Leave me alone, Rebecca," I called, hearing it break when I said her name. A shaky sigh escaping my lips when I looked at myself in the mirror. The hours of lost sleep showing in my features the longer I stared at the person in the mirror, looking like my old self once again.

"Amanda, please just open up this fucking door." Mixed emotions in her voice this time when she spoke, her hands banging on the door when I made no attempt to move from where I was standing. "Please, just open the door." Listening to her calm down when she started to sound exasperated, her body sliding down the surface of the door when I heard it slump to the floor.

The silence was deafening when neither one of us spoke. I let go of the sink with my feet leading me towards the door to sit down with the back of my head resting against it, my legs outstretched with my hands in my lap clasped together.

"Why did you dump me back in, November?" the need to know was starting to consume me the longer the silence dragged on.

"If I answer, will you open up the door?" she propositioned me, my head nodding even though she couldn't see me.

"Yes." Was all I said back. Not sure if I wanted to hear her reason for doing it.

"Because I was stupid. I thought that maybe if I drove you away, then being away from you would be easier to deal with. I felt guilty leaving you when you was going through all that shit with your mum and I guess I decided to be selfish for my benefit, but it made everything worse. And I didn't realise that until I came home." She answered earnestly, the regret clinging to her voice when she spoke the reason. My eyes falling to my inner thighs when I knew what she was talking about without saying the words.

"Why didn't you just tell me from the beginning?" I pressed. Hearing her sigh at my question.

"I don't know, I thought that up and leaving was the best thing to do than giving you a reason for my disappearing act." Hearing her shrug against the door in defeat. "Can you please open the door now?" her voice sounding small.

I reached up to the locked as I unlocked it, moving away from the door to open it to reveal Rebecca leaning against the door frame with shame painted across her facial features.

"You don't have to watch over me anymore, we're no longer together." The honesty hurting more when I heard myself speak it than hearing it come from her.

"It doesn't change the fact that I still love and care for you, Amanda." A small smile on her lips, but her eyes were saying something else.

The urge to lean forward and kiss her had me feeling sick inside but I stayed planted where I was sat, not having a reaction to what she just said to me. I knew in my heart I would always love her but at this moment in time, I couldn't stand to look at her. Knowing that part of her still believed Ryan over me even though she won't admit it, she swears she believes me but I can see it on her face she isn't sure who to side with.