Sometimes I try to run.
Not physically, but mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
Every time I feel a belonging or a loss of belonging. I run. I just want to escape, like I'm trapped, or I will be.
Yet, most of the time, I run from myself. From the demons inside of me. They swell up in my chest, turn into a storm that will never yield.
I'm afraid. I am afraid that I am running from who I am. Which causes me to run from others. I don't want my true self to hurt them, but at the same time, there are some I hope get hurt. Yet, someone may be caught in the crossfire.
An irrational fear, yes, but one I will never overcome.
Because what are fears if you overcome them?
