The me that you don't see

Chapter 9

Chapter 9

Morgan's pov

Aiden was really sweet.

He even helped me Ace my test.

I didn't really like him as a boyfriend he seemed more like a friend.

I mean we had a lot in common, but I'm just not ready for anything serious.

I told him I had gotten out of a bad relationship so I'd like to just be friends.

He said he understood.

We still hang out a lot.

We have even kissed a few times, but that's it.

I always feel so dirty after.

I need to deal with what has happened to me.

I decided to go to a therapist.

I won't tell them everything.

Just about my father raping me.

I needed to tell someone.

I needed to start to heal.

I want to look in the mirror, and not hate who I see looking back.

I can't let my father have power over me.

I want to truly put the past behind me.

I am doing so well here.

I have friends.

I am doing great in my classes.

I may even have a future now.

I never thought that was possible before.

I want to allow myself to be happy.

I can't until I put everything behind me.

I was alone walking to my therapist when I could have storn I saw my father.

There is no way.

He couldn't be here.

He has no idea where I'm at.

I huried and ran into my therapists.

I was just imagining it.

Talking about my past was bringing back that fear.

That's all it is.

I wanted to cry.

I was shaking I was so scared.

My therapist kept asking me what was wrong, but I couldn't tell her.

I didn't want to talk about it.

I called a cab to take me home.

I was to scared to walk home.

I huried into the house and locked myself in my room.

I just needed to be alone.

I needed to think.

Should I pack up, and leave?

I loved it here.

I just didn't know what to do anymore.