A/N: Okay, well, here's another chapter I guess. I feel like I did a bit better on this one than the first, but who knows? (It still kinda sucks :P) Sorry, but I did make Niall cut in this one :( It ties in with the rest of this fic....kinda...I'm still not sure how this is going to continue. Anyways I was shocked, 21 reads?? Wow...I expected like 3, at most five xD So I really want to thank you!!! :D Please Read and Review, and tell me what I should improve. Thanks again!~
Zayn's POV:
I wasn't sure why, or what exactly happened but before I knew it Niall's lips were on mine, in a passion filled kiss.
Was this really happening? I wasn't sure how to react...I mean I defiantly loved Niall, in a brotherly way, and I did feel more closely connected to him than the rest of the boys. What confused me the most though was that I found kissing the Irish boy...enjoyable? No, more than that, I actually liked it...a lot.
As I tried to get my emotions sorted (which is actually very hard to do when you've had too much to drink.) I noticed that Niall was the one kissing me. I was not going to stand for that. I flipped him on his back and started kissing him roughly as I pushed him harder into the living room rug. He moaned softly, putting me over the edge. I started tugging on that damn polo of his until I successfully got it up and over his head.
"Zayn...," he moaned, "I love you."
I immediately stopped kissing him. Something inside me screamed to keep going, but I ignored it. Did he really say he loved me...?
Niall looked up at me with hurt filled eyes.
"Zayn, I'm sorry I didn't --"
"No," I cut him off.
"Fuck, Zayn, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry I shouldnt've--" He started.
"No, I just...I'm not...," I tried to form a sentence.
Niall quickly got out from beneath me and ran up the stairs muttering more 'I'm sorrys'. A few seconds later I heard the sound of his door closing.
What have I done?
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Niall's POV:
Was I drunk? Yes. Was I making a stupid decision? Yes. Should I stop? Yes. Could I stop? Probably not.
I looked down at the razor in my hand, and the blood from the fresh cuts running down my arm. I had been doing this way to much lately. I leaned my head against the door frame. What was I going to do? Zayn hated me, the only person I had ever truly loved, hated me just because I couldn't control my stupid feelings. God, I was pathetic.
The thought of loosing Zayn forever crept inside my mind again and I felt another wave of hot tears run down my cheeks.
I lifted the razor to my wrist and pressed down, giving me some relief. I watched as the blood collected then ran down my palm to join the puddle now forming on the perfectly polished wood floor.
After I'd done it I felt a pang of regret. What would the guys think if they saw me right now? What would Zayn think? He probably wouldn't care.
I heard footsteps coming up the stairs and I scrambeld, trying to clean up my mess before Zayn passed my room.
"Niall?" Zayn asked as he knocked on my door.
"DON'T COME IN!" I yelled.
"Niall?? What's going on? What are you doing in there? I need to talk to you!" Zayn exclaimed
"GO AWAY!" I screamed.
I heard the sound of my door knob turning, noticing that it was locked, Zayn walked away. Then, all of a sudden there was a huge BAM! as someone ran into my door, forcefully pushing it open.
I flew forwards landing on my back, blood all around me. Standing in the door frame with a shocked expression on his face was Zayn.
"Zayn, I can explain!" I said, then Zayn lunged forward, wrapping his arms protectively around me in a hug.
"Niall," he breathed, "Why...?"
I didn't have the words to explain why, or how much I was going through...how much the pain I felt everyday was slowly creeping up on me. I couldn't explain just how much I loved him, so I let myself break down in his arms, clutching his shirt, trying to find a bit of comfort, as the one I loved held me tight, whispering soothing things in my ear.
I didn't think it was possible...but I was beginning to fall in love with him even more.
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Ziall: These Feelings Called Love
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