We Made it Down the Aisle (Eren x Mikasa One Shot)

1. Eren

(Optional: Play Mika's Song by Yiruma for the full fan fiction experience)

I don't know how or when it happened. It could have been the very first second I met her. All I knew was that one day I just suddenly realized that I, Eren Jaeger, was in love with my best friend.

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My father left me not too long after my mother died. I remember the evening when he said goodbye to me at the park. I sat there crying, nobody stopped to help me. They all just looked at me for a moment, pitied me and continued walking. That was when I learned everyone in this world is selfish and cruel.

I noticed a girl, about my age, peeking out from the top of the playground. She kept looking away every time I caught her gaze. I wiped my tears and I started getting annoyed. She once again looked at me and smiled. Is she mocking me?

I stood up, clenching my fist and yelled, "If you want to stare at me so bad like a creep come over here and get a better look!" Thinking she would stop, she actually slid down the slide and headed over. She's a dumb-ass.

Readying myself to say another comment, she pulls out 2 ice-cream bars from behind her back, strawberry shortcake and a Spiderman. I reach for the Spiderman ice-cream but she pulls back and pushes foward her other hand with the stawberry one. "This is for girls," I grabbed the pink one.

"I know." She replys sitting on the bench. I sat beside her eating my ice-cream. We sat there in silence until we were done.

"I'm Mikasa."

"Eren."

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We were both orphans, and I ended up moving schools to be with her. When we were older, we found a place to live together. She was like my other half. She was the only person in the world I didn't find selfish, she knew how to calm me down when I got into fights, and knew how to make me happy when I was sad.

She was like a strawberry shortcake. Seems as if she's not much and very simple, but just that small ice-cream changed my life; and didn't fail to make me the happiest guy in the world when I just had it in my hands.

We were so close you'd probably think we were siblings. I didn't even get embarrassed when Mikasa accidentally walked in on me changing, but she still got scared and turned super red.

Mikasa was a mom at home, a dad at school, and when I was sad she was a sister. I wanted to act like a lover with her all the time though.

I couldn't do that because she deserves someone better, someone who is a good guy unlike me, and who is healthy. I didn't have much time left.

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I was in the kitchen, it was my turn to cook dinner. Mikasa walked through the door and took off her coat and threw her keys on the couch. She sat on the sofa near me and stared at the ceiling, looking as if she was in deep thought.

"Eren, I'm in love."

I felt my body freeze. Startled, never expecting her to ever say that. I couldn't even make out a reply. I came into my senses and all I can think is that I was genuinely happy.

Because Mikasa wouldn't be alone when I'm gone.

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(Required: Play "All Myself" by Yiruma. Play it on repeat. Please.)

Our last night together finally came. The next day she would be living with another man. It'll be the first time in more than 13 years we'll be seperated.

I walked home from work and came across a park. The streetlights were dim and the city lights shined brightly below me. I sat on the same bench Mikasa and I first met. I felt at peace, knowing that Mikasa will be happy. All I ever wanted was for her to be happy, to live a life I could never live. I want her to have a family. Since we never had a chance to have one ourselves.

Someone sat next to me. It was Mikasa, and she startled me.

She handed me a strawberry shortcake icecream. "This is for girls," I grabbed the pink one.

"I know." She replied smiling. We ate the ice-cream in silence. Everything I wanted to say crawled up my throat. I wanted to tell her about my cancer, about my love for her, about how knowing the fact that she was going to get married to someone else was killing me, and that I wanted to kiss her so badly, at least once... but I didn't.

She put her head on my shoulder and closed her eyes.

"I love you." I said.

"Me too."

Those two words were all I needed.

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I sat in the chairs fiddling with my thumbs. The red velvet curtains unraveled and Mikasa was behind them. She stepped out and her long white beautiful dress trailed behind. Every step was graceful, but her hands were clenched looking nervous. The way the dress hugged her waist made her arms look less muscular and more delicate. Her short black hair now had extensions, it was long and was swept to the side. She held blood red roses.

She smiled, and I forced a smile back.

She hooked her arm around mine and we walked down the aisle. The groom was on the other side. Holding back the tears, I wanted this to last forever. In my head I tried to imagine that we actually made it. We finally became a real couple, because we walked down the aisle. I knew that at the end of this short walk, this would be the last time I could ever be with her.

I was by her side, and this was all I've ever wanted.

We reached the end. I held her hand one last time, she squeezed my palm, and the warmth from her hand soon disappeared and was no longer there.

I walked straight out the church afterwards. I couldn't hold in my tears any longer, I felt like I was going to break down and explode. Why couldn't it be me. Why do I have to have cancer. I want to be the one that grows old with her, have a family, and be the one to make her smile everyday. Why can't it be me. I repeated the words in my head over and over again, it's not me and will never be.

Love is when you want someone to be happy.... even if it's not with you.

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Armin, my best friend, knew about my illness. On my deathbed I handed him a picture of me and Mikasa when we were teenagers. We were in our school uniforms holding ice-creams. I told Armin that for the next 3 years to give the same exact Ice-creams for her birthday.

I told him to do that so she won't wonder why I disappeared all of a sudden. By 3 years she won't be so hurt from the news of my death.

I died alone. She wasn't by my side, but it was okay.

My very last thought was her smile.

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In these short 22 years, Mikasa was my entire life.

I don't know how it happened, or when. It could've been the very first second I met her. All I knew is that one day I just suddenly realized that I, Eren Jaeger, was in love with my best friend.

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Credits:

Side media by daydream24-7 (tumblr)
Book Cover Artist is yuuba.tumblr.com
Music by Yiruma
Characters by Hajime Isayama
Original Story by Admin 2 of Instagram @MikasaAckermann