requiem ➳ sugawara koushi ✓

eight

Don't cry.

I'm sorry.

I had to say it.

I had to make you hate me.

I had to distance myself away from you.

I'm sorry.

For all the lies that I've spouted for my recent years, this is undoubtedly the most painful of them all.

It didn't hurt when I told my friends I'm okay.

It didn't hurt when I toppled over the floor and laughed it away despite the pain overwhelming my whole system.

It didn't hurt when they my parents told me this was my endgame.

It didn't hurt when the doctors told me I was dying.

This is for the best.

I haven't told you before, have I?

I love you.

I love you so much that's why I'm letting you go.

And I'm sorry.

For all the pain that I caused you.

“I hate you.”

Please understand it was a lie.