On this day I stand alone.
This life I've lead now is gone.
As I found a way to kill the pain.
Deep down inside simple and plain.
The bottle has found me at last.
As I give in the pain will pass.
Til the bottle runs dry and I pop a pill.
A new method of thrills that kill.
These blades tainted with blood.
This heart feels like it was shot by a slug.
Yet these pill so bitter sweet.
I find myself half dead on the street.
Looking up at the heavens as I say goodbye.
Falling down to hell because I can't fly.
They say these walls are closing in.
And a new world begins.
A world of fire and gasoline.
A truth to life far from seen.
I once had the weight of the world on my shoulder.
I let the world fall as i got older.
A new day came and out of the fire.
Became this demon of lust and desire.
This blade with my blood never again stained.
Yet filled with the blood of the world is my new game.
They can say that I have gone insane.
Well fuck you for you don't know my pain.
While you preach this shit to me.
Drown someone else with your lies deep into the sea.
For I have found my new thrill.
Mixed with the pills and kills.
This bottle of gin.
In a world of sin.
