Chapter 1

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Chapter 1

*Chloes Diary*

I'm tired of crying

I'm tired of feeling

I'm tired of being sad

I'm tired of pretending

I'm tired of being alone

I'm tired of being angry

I'm tired of feeling crazy

I'm tired of feeling stuck

I'm tired of needing help

I'm tired of remembering

I'm tired of missing things

I'm tired of being different

I'm tired of missing people

I'm tired of feeling worthless

I'm tired of feeling empty inside

I'm tired of not being able to let go

I'm tired of wishing I could start over I'm tired of dreaming of a life I will never have

But most of all I'm just tired of being tired

*Chloe's P.O.V*

The door flings open as my brothers Fight for the remote

"GET OUT OF MY ROOM"

Of course they just ignore me

"NOW"

They knock over a picture of my mom and just stand there speechless looking at the broken glass on my floor. I can feel my eyes filling up with tears.

"We're so sorry Chloe" Alex and Cole stutter

"J....Just get out"

I grabbed the picture as they leave and stare at it as tears fall down my face.

"I try mom, I try to tell my self I'm happy with out you, I try to happy with who I am, But I hate everything about my self"

I start sobbing

"I need you mommy"

-couple hours later-

* Chloe, Alex and Coles dads P.O.V*

-knock knock- I come in to Chloe's room, sit on her bed and rub her back as she buries her face and her pillow.

" hey honey Alex and Cole told me what happened, when... someone you love becomes a memory, that memory becomes a wonderful treasure to always hold in your heart, everything will always be okay Hun"

"Just go away dad" Chloe mumbles in to her pillow

I walk I to the living room to see Alex and Cole watching TV so I turned it off

"You too are grounded and you're paying for new frame to that picture"

"Daaad she died almost 5 years ago it's just a picture"

" your paying for it and that's the end of this conversation" I leave the living room

*Chloe's P.O.V*

I hear my dad talking to my brothers and I walked downstairs and they stand up and stare at me

"We're SOOO sorry Chloe we didn't mean to break the picture"

"You know what, I remember mom telling me that we are nothing more than our stories, and I look at the picture, and I think of all the stores that are now forever silenced, and all I can do is lay in my room fall asleep dream of her and wake up and do nothing about it. I've talked to my friends, I've talk to myself, I've talked to God, I pray like hell, but I still miss her.

I tried being sober, I've tried drinking,I've Been strong, I've been weak and I still miss her, I've done everything to move on like I'm supposed to I'd give anything for one more minute with her, but I still miss her."

"Chloe we didn't mean too..."

"Just shut up"

I run up stairs and slam my door.

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