.
I just don't get it
Why does love cause so much pain?
Why is it like an addictive drug that I'll be lost without?
Yeah, I know it's bad for me; but yet I still chased it
That's where I went wrong
You were my everything and something I once longed for; I trusted you
I handed you the knife to kill me just in case your love ever died for me
You promised it wouldn't .... but it did
It actually caught me by surprise to find that same exact knife in my heart
I spent nights crying before my heart slowly broke into a million pieces
When the final piece fell; I died on the inside
You're the reason I'm afraid to fall in love, in fear of trusting, afraid of breathing
You're the reason I stay up at night reminiscing
We're all afraid of something
I'm afraid of that knife because history repeats
You sucked out every bit of happiness I once had, every last bit
It's not R.I.P, it;s R.I.F because no matter how dead I am, there is no peace
I'll never stop being fulfilled with fear
I wish you the best because I'll forever be dead
My soul is as non-existent as my love for you
In loving memory of
my soul
© 2017 Rureal ALL RIGHTS RESERVED
(GIF NOT MINE, FOUND ON GIPHY.COM)
YOU ARE READING
3000% done|| Under Editing
PoetryI don't let people in. I'm terrible at explaining how I feel verbally. This is me being 3000% Done. This is poetry. This is me. © 2019 Rureal ALL RIGHTS RESERVED
