Words left unsaid

weak

I say "I don't care what you think of me"

I act strong

hide my tears

put on a fake smile when I need to

act like it doesn't hurt

but I realize 

It does .

and I finally cry

I really do care what you think of me

I still wonder why

your opinion should not matter

but it really does to me

"please stop" I say 

I'm tired of pretending 

fake smiles take too much effort

whats the point?

I let you win

but I can't help it

I can't help myself

I'm weak

I'm sorry