after l.s version

Chapter 15

I change out of my pajamas and put on a new pair of jeans that I haven't worn yet. They are a little tighter than my usual pants but I need to do laundry so I don't have a choice but to wear them. My shirt is a simple black button up, sleeveless shirt.

"Wow, I actually like your outfit a lot" Zayn tells me. I assume it is a compliment despite the surprise in his voice that he would actually like something I am wearing. I smile and he tries to offer me eyeliner again, gosh why do guys wear eyeliner here it's so weird

"No thanks" I tell him and he puts it away.

"Molly is picking us up instead of Niall, she just text so she will be here any minute"

"I don't think she likes me" I know she doesn't.

"She does, she is just too honest sometimes and I think she is intimated by you"

"By me? Why on earth would she be intimated by me?" I laugh. I am the one intimidated by her.

"I think just because you're so different from us" he says and smiles. I know I am different from them but to me they are the "different" ones. "Don't worry about her she will be occupied tonight" he laughs.

"By Harry?" I ask before I can stop myself. I can't help but notice the way she is looking at me with her eyebrow raised.

"No, by someone else probably. She changes guys every week." That's a harsh thing to say about his friend but he just smiles.

"She isn't dating Harry?" The image of them making out on the bed comes into my mind.

"No way, Harry doesn't date. He just messes around with a lot of people but he doesn't date anyone. Ever"

"What do you mean by people? Does he um like girls and guys?" I ask confused

"Yeah he's bi, are you? i mean bi?" he asks

"No i'm straight, but i fully support gays" i say 

"Me too" he says and we sit awkwardly saying nothing else waiting for molly to arrive.

After what felt like an iternity Zayn's phone rings and i assume it was Molly 

"Lets go" he grabs my arm and pulls me outside.

The party tonight is the same as last week, tons of people, drunk people everywhere. Why didn't I just stay in and stare at my ceiling? Molly disappears as soon as we arrive and I end up getting a spot on the couch and staying there for at least an hour before Harry walks by.

"You look.. different" he says as I stand up. His eyes rake down my body and back up. He doesn't even try to be subtle about it. I stay silent and his eyes meet mine. "Your clothes actually fit you tonight" he laughs. I roll my eyes and adjust my shirt, suddenly wishing I was wearing my normal loose clothing. "I am surprised to see you here"

"Yea.. I am surprised that I ended up here again." I say and walk away from him. He doesn't follow, but for some reason I find myself wishing he would have.

A few hours later, Zayn is drunk again, well everyone is drunk again. "Lets play truth or dare" Lilly slurs and their small group of tattooed friends gather around the couch. Molly passes a bottle of clear alcohol to Niall and he takes a swig. Harry's hand covers his entire red cup as he takes a sip.

They all agree to play a drunken game of truth or dare which couldn't possibly end well. Another punk looking girl joins the game, making it Harry, Zayn, Niall, Niall's roommate Tristan, Molly, Lilly, and the new girl. "You should play Louis" Molly says with a wicked smile.

"No, I'd rather not" I tell her and look away.

"Like he would actually play, he would have to stop being a prude for five minutes" Harry tells them and they all laugh except Zayn. His words anger me, I am not a prude. Yea, I will admit I am not by any means wild, but I am no prude. I glare at Harry and sit down cross legged in their little circle, in between Niall and the new girl. Harry laughs and whispers something to Lilly before they start.

The first few truths and dares include Lilly being dared to chug an entire beer can, Molly being dared to flash their group her bra, (which she did) and finding out that the new girl has her nipples pierced.

"Truth or dare Louis?" Niall asks and I gulp.

"Truth?" I squeak. Harry laughs and mutters "of course" I ignore him and Niall rubs his hands together.

"Are you a virgin?" Niall asks and I choke on my own breath. No one seems fazed by the intrusive question besides me. I feel the heat in my cheeks and the humor in everyone's faces.

"Well?" Lilly says. Despite how much I want to run away and hide, I just nod. Of course I am a virgin, the furthest me and Lauren have gone is making out and me touching her bottom, through her jeans of course.

No one seems surprised by my answer, just intrigued. "So you have been dating Lauren for two years and you haven't had sex?" Zayn asks and I shift uncomfortably. I just shake my head.

"Harry's turn" I say, hoping to take the attention off myself.