What is it like being the forbidden one? Why are things called forbidden if when we do it, we feel so good? Why does it feel right when in fact – everything about it is plain wrong? Why does it have to be like that?
And why am I writing this? I thought that I have forgotten but here I am dwelling in the past – thinking about those times I have spent with that son of a gun.
Well... I have no choice. I am a writer by calling, by passion and by profession – I have to write this one, kahit man lang sa notes ko.
I met him way back in college – thank God because I don't want this to be another cliché high school story – take note, this isn't a love story, it's just a story of how my love life was ruined by this sonf of a gun.
I was in a very long relationship. Actually, graduating na ako at kamuntikan ko nang isuko ang Bataan ko kay Sergio Jimenez noon. Tanda ko pa iyong araw na iyon. I was in my university – sa freedom park – hinihintay ko si Sergio dahil ika-fift anniversary naming dalawa. I was pretty excited that time. Sa bag ko, nandoon iyong overnight panties ko at bra, sa paper bag nandoon iyong regalo ko sa kanya – fruit salad package – with whipped cream para naman kakainin niya iyon sa mismong katawan ko.
I was sure that I wanna be with him forever. Napag-uusapan rin naman naming dalawa ni Sergio ang kasal. We plan to be with each other's life for a long time at dahil na rink ay Sergio ay naniniwala ako sa forever. Forever is real when it comes to our relationship.
But that belief was ruined that same exact day of our anniversary.
Habang nakaupo ako sa bench ng freedom park ay may isang lalaking naka-itim na t-shirt ang lumapit sa akin. His eyes were the first thing that I noticed. It had a different color – silver – am I just seeing things?
He seemed angry. But was he angry with me? And was he really looking at me?
May dala siyang asul na payong. Mainit naman kasi talaga. Palapit siya nang palapit at habang tumatagal ay lumilinaw sa akin ang hitsura niya.
He was a tall man with curly locks. He had a face of an Olympian. Perfect nose, intense eyes, full lips – na mas pula pa yata sa labi ko. Napaawang ang bibig ko habang titig na titig ako sa kanya.
He stopped when he was just inches away from me.
"Miss Catherine Fe Albarda - Cinco." Tawag niya sa buong pangalan ko. He smiled and his perfectly white teeth was revealed. "Cachi to her family and close friends. Baby girl to your boyfriend Sergio Jimenez. Fourth year Education Student, Major in Biological Science."
Napatayo ako. I feel weird.
"Who are you?" I asked him. "Ang weird mo. Bakit kilala mo ako?"
He grinned at me.
"Sumama ka sa akin."
"Hindi ako sasama sa'yo." Giit ko pa. Ano siya? Hindi ko naman siya kilala! Naisip kon sumigaw ng kidnap or rape dahil baka iyon naman talaga ang gagawn niya, hindi lang ako masyadong sure pero feeling ko ire-rape niya ako!
"Sumama ka sa akin. I will show you something."
"I don't want to!" I hissed. Natigilan siya. Isinara niya ang payong tapos ay humarap sa akin. Tang ina, ang perfect niya! Is he a demigod?
"My name is Kairos Vejar." Pakilala niya. Hindi ko pa rin alam kung anong pakay niya sa akin. "And my girlfriend is cheating on me with your boyfriend – at monthsary nila ngayon."
Natulala ako. Pinaglololoko niya ba ako? Walang ibang girlfriend si Sergio! Ako lang ang girlfriend niya! Kaming dalawa lang ang para sa isa't isa! Nangako kami na sa isa't isa isusuko ang virginity namin!
