A Ter-Raji story. I knew he was married and I didnt care because I knew what was on camera wasnt real. You may think what everyone else is thinking that Im a woman and I should have some type of respect for myself. But I wasnt the other woman , his...
It's been a month since she took that ring off. A month since she walked away from me. Granted we lived under the same roof but her rule was strict and simple I had to stay downstairs in the guest room. Many nights I just wanted to slide in bed next to her when her bedroom door was opened.
Like lastnight before I tucked Qirin in, I couldn't help but stand in the doorway and watch her. The sheets tangled around her body, her curly hair wild and untamed which fell in her face. She slept on her side of the bed, my side still cold and unoccupied. I was going insane, all I wanted to do was lay next to her and hold her in my arms.
Or When I would be in TJ's room preparing him for bed at night I would hear her singing in the shower. She never took singing seriously but she always sounded good in my opinion.
I remember those nights I would grab my guitar and she would sing along to my tune. She would close her eyes and rock getting into it, I was always taken away by her angelic voice; couldn't help but stare at her.
I blinked taking my mind away from a distant memory of what we used to be.
We didn't talk unless the topic was about the kids. A casual conversation would end up being awkward. Rahji didn't even touch the topic of us getting back together she shot me down everytime I brought it up. Back to square 1 all over again.
One thing that gave me hope was that necklace that stayed around her neck. She continued to wear it, if she wore it I knew she still thought about us. I loved her so much, I needed her to forgive me so I could make this right.
Titan squirmed on the changing table as I changed his diaper. This boy could go through some pampers. He ate all the time he loved the breast milk. I smirked my boy loved the boobies just like me.
He babbled spitting out his pacifier. He kicked his chubby legs as I snapped his pamper on. He was so anxious and full of smiles. Titan was feeling good; he was fresh out of a bath I had just given him. He grabbed his belly button as I put the Aveno baby lotion on his soft skin.
"Daddy got mighty Titan all clean now, the ladies are going to be all over you lil man."I coo'd after finally getting him fully dressed;putting his bear paw shoes on his feet. He flashed a drooling smile up at me sucking on his finger.
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I picked him up holding him close to me, bouncing him on my shoulder. I have been waiting for this moment for some time now to finally hold my son and stand in this nursery at the same time. When Taraji was pregnant I just knew she was having a boy.
The first time I felt him kick, the way our face lit up at the same time. That same night we made love to eachothers body. She catered to me that night; my body ached for her, the way she took control like the boss she was. That same weekend I proclaimed my love for her and proposed, the way her face lit up when she saw me down on one knee.
