Vampire Academy: Final Choice

Best Friends Don't Always Understand

Best Friends Don't Always Understand

I stood at Adrian's door for a seconds, shock holding me in place before I slowly sank to the floor; my knees giving out. Silent tears straked down my face, painful against the bitter wind that was blowing through the trees. I stayed there for what felt like hours, but from the looks of the dark sky, I knew could be only 10 minutes or so. I pushed myself up from the ground, my arms feeling cold as I wrapped them around myself. It wasn't the fact that Adrian was angry at me, it was that it was Adrian. I didn't know he knew how to be angry, especially not with me. Nothing ever seemed to touch him, he was in his own world most of the time, coccooned in a haze of cigarette smoke and alcoholic fumes. I felt like my heart was breaking all over again, and my eyes still stung.Walking down the steps, I looked back just once before I turned and walked across campus to the one place where I knew I would get support and comfort. Lissa.

It only took me 4 minutes to walk over to where she was staying. I knew that house better than my own dorm room back at the academy, and I knew that she would be there, hopefully with something warm and chocolate like. She couldn't feel my emotions through the bond, but when I got there it would be pretty clear that i could use a hug. God, I didn't even want to think about how pathetic I looked, tears streaming down my face as I walked to Lissa's praying that she wouldn't ask too many questions. 

The weather was turning colder now, as it was around 12:30 and the wind was picking up, throwing leaves around is dirty swirls of colour. The moonlight filtering through the branches added an eerie feel the the path, making me walk just a bit quicker than usual. It was the royal court, so there weren't going to be any suprise strigoi attacks, but I still felt uneasy. 

Even with the cold though, I still couldn't help but marvel at the sky. It was clear and beautiful. The stars were like shining lights thrown over the dark blue night and I felt myself marvelling at how they could be so far away and yet still seem to be close enough to touch. I sighed. Their distant beauty reminded me of Adrian and Dimitri. The two completely different men who I had somehow found myself in love with. Sometimes life just sucked. I loved both of them, not only in different ways but for different things, Adrian for his patience and the way he always seemed to make me laugh, and Dimitri. Ahh Dimitri. I couldn't put into words how much I truly loved him. There was no way to describe the all consuming love and happiness I felt with him, even if it had always had an undercurrent of sadness.

I shook myself out of my reverie. "Come on Rose, don't join the pity party." The stars were still bright, but dark clouds were drifting over the moon, and like my mood, it was getting darker. 

I arrived at her house a few minutes later, and it looked, thankfully, like Lissa was in. Good. I was defiantly not in the mood to go chasing her all over the fucking court. The lights were on downstairs and I could hear her talking. Shit, I hope Christian wasn't visiting. I ran a hand through my hair, and across my face at that. Christain was not the comforting type, and right now I wasnt in the mood to bitch. Tears still flowed out of my eyes as I approuched the door, seriously hoping it wasn't him in there. Not only would that be pretty damn awkward but I wasn't in the mood to watch him and her have sex. I'd had enough of that back at the academy although I knew Lissa couldn't help but suck me into her mind when she was feeling an emotion pretty strongly. And that had been awkward enough for both of us. I suppressed a shudder and stepped forward to knock at her door.

"Lissa? Lissa? You there? I kinda have to talk to you."  Could I sound stupider? I hoped not. Pulling the sleeves on my sweater down over my knuckles I kncoked again, louder this time. Stepping back I looked at the windows. There were shadows, and they were moving. So she definatly wasn't alone. The hopes of her being on the phone fled with abject sadness. I shifted from foot to foot, waiting for a few more seconds.