Our Story

Crushin'

I wish I could tell you if this story had an ending. But the truth would be, it does not yet have an ending and it may not get one.

       I tell Air everything. Whether it is at the very second or later on if she isn't feeling well at the time. I try to tell her everything but sometimes my memory doesn't allow me to do so. Air knows more about me than anyone. I have never told anyone as much as I have told Air. I didn't know why I trusted a strange girl that I barely knew with everything but then I figured out why.

     I had a crush on her, but no that wasn't it. I have crushed on people before, and this was more than that. I had a crush on Jason for two and a half years I liked him. Once I figured out I liked Air, I honestly forgot about him. Forgot he existed really. Airy made me forget a guy I liked for like ever. So then I realized I liked Air for more than just a crush. As I got to know her better I thought I may just love her as a sister but no, I couldn't love as just a sister. Sisters don't feel what I feel towards Airy.

     One of my close friends said this to me after I told her that Air was my problem and my solution. "She can't be the solution. She is your problem! She is causing you this pain! I've tried to help you with this and I have helped you with this countless times since you've told me! This is getting messed up though, you're putting yourself in pain because of her, It isn't right! Any either which way it's your choice, I can't make you choose and I can't help you 'cause you're not allowing me too and neither is Airy. So this is your decision on whatever you want to do just don't put yourself through the pain!"

     I had told her that she wasn't hurting me, I couldn't even imagine it and she told me, "She ain't hurting you but it is because you love her and the pain you're in making you hurt yourself! I'd rather not talk about it. It scares me enough that you can't feel the pain anymore." It made me wonder if what she was saying is true and I have yet to find an answer.