Chapter 8
"Ayaw kong lumabas Ian. Why don't we just hang out here?" Nakahiga ako sa kama at tamad na tamad bumangon habang si Ian ay nakasandal sa gilid ng doorway at nakatingin sa akin. Actually, kanina pa siya nasa bahay ko at naghihintay sa living room. Napagod na ata kakahintay kaya pinasok na ako sa kwarto. We have a plan of going out but I bailed out the moment he arrived. I am not in the mood to go out, I just want to lie down on my bed the whole day.
"We cannot hang out here. Alam mo yun. Napag usapan na natin kung bakit." I rolled my eyes while I covered myself with my blanket up to my chin. Yeah right, simula nung nangyari last time, yung tungkol sa usapang orgasm, nag decide na siya na hindi na kami maghahang out sa condo ko. Pinapahirapan ko lang daw siya. Kaya tuwing magdedate kami, sa labas kami palagi. Kapag hinahatid niya ako from school, hindi siya nagtatagal. Minsan, hindi na nga siya lumalabas ng kotse.
"I don't know why you're so worried about us doing it. You know that I would willingly give it to you."
"That's the exact reason why we can't be together alone in a private place Jee. I don't know how long can I hold on to my control. I'm this close." Pinakita pa niya sa akin kung gaano na lang kaiksi ang pagtitimpi niya. I wanted to laugh out loud but I suppressed my laugh.
"Come here, babe." He gave me a warning look and I wasn't able to hide my smile. Ohhh...so cute.
"C'mon Ian, I won't be seducing you today. This is the time of the month." I groaned when I felt the pain in my abdomen.
"Ohh..I see." Naglakad na siya palapit sa akin at naupo sa kama ko.
"Are you okay? May kailangan ka ba?" He comb my hair with his hand. I almost rolled my eyes at him. Pero hindi ko maikakaila ang masarap na feeling na andito siya sa tabi ko at nag aalala para sa akin. Ian is too good to be true that I feel like what we have is not real. Minsan naisip ko, may mga lalaki pa bang katulad niya? It's like he came directly from a romance novel. He's the kind of guy that every girl wanted to have. Handsome, romantic, caring, understanding and with an unquestionable virtue, Iilan na lang ba ang mga lalaking tatanggi sa sex kapag ino-offer sa kanila? Other guys would grab at the opportunity of getting laid, without a second thought, in just a blink of an eye. He is too ideal but who am I to complain? Magrereklamo pa ba ako kung masaya naman ako kapag kasama ko siya?
Pero minsan inaamin ko na natatakot ako. Sa halos dalawang buwan na relasyon namin, nararamdaman ko ang pagbabago sa sarili ko. I can feel myself relying too much on Ian. Kapag may lakad ako, parang hindi ako mapakali kapag hindi ko sinabi sa kanya kung saan ako pupunta. Kahit paggogrocery, kailangan ko pang sabihin sa kanya. Am I becoming too clingy and too dependent on Ian?Ayaw ko nang ganun. I am an independent person and I would like to keep that independence.
"Babe, may menstruation lang ako, wala akong sakit. Stop fussing over me."
"Pero may masakit sa'yo." I can see the concern in his eyes and it makes me wanna jump into him and hug him tight. What a sweet guy.
"Yes but this will eventually stop. Nakainom na ako ng gamot. Tinatamad lang talaga akong bumangon at gusto ko na lang matulog."
"Do you want to eat something? Some chowder, perhaps? I can cook for you."
"Ian... I am fine. Wala ka bang gagawin sa inyo? Aren't you going to the office? Don't you have any paperworks?" Kahit kasi hindi pa siya graduate, tumutulong na siya sa company nila. That's one of the things I admire about Ian. He's very responsible and I never heard him complain about his responsibilities.
"Pinapalayas mo na ako?" Napangiti ako sa expression ng mukha niya. Why, he is so adorable!
"No...don't get me wrong. I love having you here. Pero ano ang gagawin mo dito kung matutulog lang ako? You'll get bored, babe."
