Moving on. How can I manage that easily?
For a long time, I didn't let anyone to enter my door, even in my own dark room. For a long time, I lived alone just as my state now. Still alone with my own world.
I have to be tough and stubborn. It's inevitable just to live. I need to be like that just to let myself live in normal and less hassle. Others may think I'm dumb and so I don't care. They don't know me anymore behind my close door.
For so many years, I let my head conquered my feelings. So, the stoneheart in me is not really a hard one but weaker one and easy to break. And I hate the way some people see my weaker side. Pity is irking into my veins and soul. I know to myself that I'm not a pity creature because I live for a purpose.
Tougher me. I need to be tough, because if I let myself to be drowned, surely I will be demise. Kill myself is a better way, but I never do that. Not a total dumb and stupid to do that.
All was failing me. Even me, I failed myself for being like this. I failed myself thousand times. But I don't forget how to stand on my own. Anyway, God is there to uphold me. God is the only One who never fails me. I am the only one who fail Him.
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SOJOURN in my JOURNAL...
Non-FictionWala ka bang magawa? Ako din eh -_- This is a journal that contains the RANDOM FEELINGS of a young girl, from time to time. Maybe it's just her childish memoirs but it has the real emotions. If you wanna read this, well it's up to you. What's Inside...
