Last Message [ One Shot ]

"You're wasting my time, we're done, it's over, ano ba sa mga salitang yan ang hindi mo naintindihan? Leave me alone" Trust me. This is better... mas maaga, less drama.

Sabi nga nila, Life is short to waste it on such things... such things called 'LOVE'

It's nothing but pain and heartaches, I'm no hater.... ang sakin lang kase... bakit ka pa papasok sa isang estadong alam mo namanag kailangan ring matapos. Mahirap ma in-love lalo na sa mga taong tulad ko...

We're given less time than the average human being. But still... I fell deeply in love, and right now, I know that the only thing I can do is to step out of it... bago pa ko tuluyang masaktan, bago pa sya tuluyang masaktan...

"Kaya pa naman... diba?" So this is what you call tears? ung likidong unti unting namumuo sa mata mo habang naninikip ung dibdib mo... it's weird and I don't like it...

"You look pathetic, tama na Pat... it's not worth it" Bago pa tuluyang tumulo ung luha ko, nakatalikod na kaagad ako sa kanya... It went down my cheeks as I walked away from him. It's funny how LOVE works, how well it hurts us Humans...

We're all helpless, we're defenseless, lahat ng tao tatamaan nito... anyone falls in love, but Me... I fell in deep shit, and it's so unfair! sobrang daya kase sa dinami rami ng pwedeng maging ako... Ako pa rin ang napili... It sucks to be Dying, the thought off facing Death, the thought of leaving him behind... The thought of why on earth would I fall in love with my only guy best friend in the first place

Meet Patrick Mendoza, best friend ko nga pala, kapit bahay naming kalog, kopyahan ko sa tests, taga gawa ko ng homeworks at projects... Ung sugar daddy ko, ung lalakeng mas malala pa sa totoong daddy ko kung manermon. Ung lalakeng mahilig sa pusa, lalong lalo na kung kiting pa... at ang pinaka importante sa lahat, ung lalakeng mahal na mahal ko...

Ung lalakeng tinatakbuhan ko papalayo bago pa sya masaktan ng tuluyan...

Di ako tumatakbo kase duwag ako, I'm running away because I love him.

A little sacrifice is nothing for anyone you love... And in my case, pushing him away is the least I can do... mamatay at mamatay rin naman ako...

But he won't give up on us.... I know him more than anyone else... he'd talk to me, at expected nya na rin na he won't get any reply.... he loves me, I know... and so do I, pero trust me, it's better this way...

"Why didn't you tell me? You know we can still fix things!" ang hirap sa mga lalake, they don't know when to stop at what they're fighting for. Hindi lahat ng bagay worth ng oras mo... tulad ko, I'm jus another peice of crap, I'm slowly rotting, i'm slowly dying...

"Pano kung hindi na, pano kung bukas.... wala na talaga, stop It Patrick, man up, matuto kang humarap sa mga bagay na maari mong kahinatnan kapag nawala na ko! Hindi ko sinabi sayo, cause I know that this would be exactly your response! tama na Pat! It's not worth it!"

"You're wrong! maling mali ka anika, you just can't see it! masyado ka ng nabubulag ng sakit mo, you're so blinded by your death, can't you see? Hindi ako titigil, You know I wont give us up! damn it Anika I'm not just your boyfriend! best friend mo rin ako! at masakit kase you didn;t trust me on this!" Halos masira na ung pintuan ko habang kinakalabog nya ito, Nasa loob ako ng kwarto at di pa rin ako lumalabas ever since... Just talking to him, just by hearing his voice makes my heart crumples... pano pa kaya kung makita ko na sya?

This is why I'm avoiding him... I can't see him like this... I can't see him hurting because of me... Sino ba naman ako? I'm just human, wala akong kakayanan na baguhin ang mga bagay bagay...

"Enough Patrick... stop hurting yourself"

"Then stop shutting me out, kala mo ba ikaw lang napapagod? I am too anika, damn" Unti unti nang tumutulo ung luha ko... bakit ganito, why do we always end up in tears...

"Just give up..." bulong ko sa gilid ng pintuan. ang sakit sakit... why can't this be a world for both of us? bakit kailangan kong mawala... bakit ako pa? bakit si patrick pa ung bestfriend ko? bakit pa ko na inlove sa ka kanya? bakit sya pa? bakit kaming dalawa pa? ang daming bakit, wala namang sagot...

"I can't..." Naramdaman kong unti unting naninikip ung dibdib ko... Kinagat ko ng mariin ung labi ko...

why is death painful?

why does love sucks?

why can't we be with the ones we love? maybe this is the only thing I can answer... It's because we all have different perpective... and we always choose what we think is best for the ones we love... it's foolish... cliche, but we all think of the same thing.

"Let me go..."

"I can't..." Naririnig ko ung mga hikbi nya... Is this for real... my best friend, Patrick Mendoza... na kailanman hindi pa naiyak sa titanic... is crying over me? ang sakit sakit...

"why?" Ipinikit ko na ang mga mata ko, naramdaman ang pagbagal ng tibok ng puso ko, kasabay nito ang unti unting paglamig ng mga labi ko.

"It's because you're Anika Lopez, parasite na kung parasite... maka kopya wagas na hangang sa bahay nangongopya parin, pineperahan mo nga lang ata ako nung naging tayo... but hell do I care, wala e... mahal kita... stop telling me that you're not worth it... cause trust me, you're more worth it than my damned life... I don't want to sound cheesy pero kase... You mean everything to me. You're the best friend anyone would wish to have... you're the best girl friend, you're one of a kind... mahal kita, kaya utang na loob naman... I'm here... I'm still here" tumigil sya sa pagsasalita... as if waitig for my response...

ang hirap magsalita lalo na kung unti unti nang nag cocollapse ung katawan mo. Kung unti unti nang nasisira ung systems mo... ung unti unti mong nararamdaman na parang binibiyak sa dalawa ung ulo mo sa sobrang sakit.

" wait for me at the other side... I want you to rest... but it doesn't mean that I'm letting you go, I love you, always have and always will... And anika lopez... gusto kong malaman mong--"

Mahal na mahal rin kita Patrick Mendoza.