i dont know
how to put the words
in the right order
or what to say
to get across
whats in my mind
im hurt
but its just a dull ache
that i hold inside.
boys
ones gone
what can i say
he wont come back
no matter how many nights i cry
no matter how much i die
inside
hes still gone...
i wonder what would happen if he came back
and i was not here...
if i wasn't alive anymore...
does he even care?
sometimes i wonder...
he promised
he lied
another
well who knows
he... forgot his password?
a lie
hes been on every day for the past week
no email
nothing
not a word
does he think i forgot him?
like he forgot me?
how could i?
he was the literal guy from my dreams
the guy that i had dreams of getting married to
when i was little
same face
same chocolate eyes
same bright smile
same sense of humor
he said he liked me
he is gone now
at least the first guy had the decency to say goodbye
sort of...
how can anything go back the way it was?
how can i go back to the way i was
before i met him
just a few short months ago
its seems like a lifetime ago
when i first saw his old comments
3 accounts ago
and fanned him
and read his adorable poems
and answered his question
what is love?
i sent him a PM
and after that
after we got the stuff for his story done
he started asking questions
he got to know me
and i, him
staying up really late, talking
