Everything I Never Said...

Caving In...

Pain so real that it cuts... it cuts to the core

And when the tears start, they don't fall slowly but they pour

During the day I force a smile and tell everyone else that things will be okay

But at the end of the day I'm not strong enough and give into the pressures of the day

Sitting crouched in a corner behind a locked bathroom door

Squeezing the blade so tight my fingers begin to sore

Silently crying begging for something to change

Because living this way is driving me insane

Telling myself that last night was the last time

Who was I kidding, I don't know how to survive

Survive without using a blade to numb the pain

I just am living life in vain

So maybe tonight will be my last

Just as soon as I figure out how to move on from the past...