Look at the beautifull blood run down my arms mom
isnt it beautifull? It means that I'm alive right? are you proud of me now mom?
Im still usefull right? except for my left arm. I can barely feel it, its gone numb
and the pain feels great, and i want more of it. I can do my left leg, but then my left leg
would be useless, but maybe I am useless and i should do right leg, right?
but after all that my right arm would be usefull and i can't cut my right arm with it.
I'll use my mouth and teeth then. see mom i can be usefull to myself, I can be usefull
to be e completly useless and once i have done all my 4 limbs we can both be happy, me
laying on the floor and you far away getting away even farther. I killed my ex-best friend that day.
She couldnt handle my emotions. While she was driving on the highway she suddendly stop
and got out of the car. she didn't look back, because she knew her live was about to stop. what
have I done? I had said, but it wasnt my fault. She did not have to invade my head and for that
she is dead. I would say "forgive me lucy" but this time it was your game.
I had made a promise and yesterday i broke it. I would ask for forgiveness, but insted I
would like punishment and it was at the moment when I trully had given up.
This time I wont be able to stop myself from hurting myself.
It has gone beyond my control and i'm afraid. Soon my time will be gone were I am require
to give up. I can't keep this up anymore and I have nothing more to give. Farewell and goodbye,
this is the END.....
