Never Mess With A Gangster [IAGH Book 2]

NMWAG 7: How did I fall inlove with you?

// NMWAG 7: How did I fall inlove with you?//

I'm so sorry guys. Ngayon lang ulit nakapag-update. It took me a lot of re-reading the chapters and absorbing everything kasi sadly it has been almost a year since I last updated this. I'm a 2nd year college student now legends, I am taking my acads seriously. To all my readers who are still in highschool, ENJOY your highschool life. College is so fvcked up and everything is a mess. I guess I'm just too dumb to trust the wrong person. Anyway, I hope you enjoy this chapter kahit na everything is messed up right now in this story.(like my life aff) But don't lose hope, everything happens for a reason. 

NICOLE'S POV

"Kent is leaving today." 

I am silently hoping that Rhicka is joking. 

"You're kidding right?" I looked at Krishna. I guess I'm not the only one who's hoping that she's kidding. 

I looked at Princess. She didn't say anything, she just smiled. "I guess there's nothing to lose anymore. " then she smiled again.

"WTF." they all looked at me. "What? Pati ba naman ikaw bhes? Pati ba naman ikaw susuko na? Alam mo ba kung gaano kasakit malaman na yung taong mahal mo, yung mga taong pinapahalagahan mo ay susuko nalang sayo. Kilala ko kayo guys. I know you're all tough inside and out but I know that inside all of you, you're still the same when I met you the first time. Alam kong di kayo basta basta sumusuko..." I'm starting to cry... again. "Bhes naman please, wag ka munang sumuko. Malay mo may reason si Kent.. Malay mo he's planning to surprise you for your anniversary. Diba hindi pa naman sya nakikipag break sayo? wala pag closure kaya you can't give up now." 

"Naririnig mo ba sarili mo bhes?" napayuko ako sa sinabi ni krishna. "It has already been 4 months nicole. 4 months nang hindi kinakausap ni Kent si Princess. Nagkikita at nagkakasalubungan sila sa school pero ni oy ni ay walang sinasabi yang si Kent. Pati sila Andrew at Troy nga eh natulad na ki Kent.  Can't you see? Ginamit lang nila tayo. They need us in the arena. Period! Now they're done with us, It's time that they dispose whatever they used." yes, you heard it right. They're all thinking that they used us for the WOG. We won despite the fact that everything is so messed up between all of us. We practiced combat day and night, we practice our own field of expertise just to make sure we won't lose like what we planned. Pero all those days, hindi kami nag-iimikan. Ang sakit right? Masakit sa feeling ma-ignore. Masakit sa damdamin na parang wala lang silang nakikita, na parang hangin lang kami sa paningin nila. And guess what ? Kent never showed up in any of our practices but he showed up the day of the fight. And we don't know how and why but Princess seem to know that he will come so she watched the fight. Pagkatapos nun we are all thinking na kakausapin nya si Kent or Him to her--pero wala. She just left after watching us. And it has been a mystery to us ever since. She's head over heels to him but that time hindi namin yun nakita. 

And now.. Tulad nga ng sinabi nya na she's got nothing to lose. Wala na. Wala na talagang pag-asa. "Bhes," I stopped and wiped my tears, "Ako nalang ata yung kumakapit eh. Ako nalang ata yung umaasa na magiging okay ang lahat." alam kong hindi na talaga pero hindi ako nawawalan ng pag-asa. I keep on telling myself that everything will be fine and everything will come back to the ways it's supposed to be. Oo, It has already been 4 months. 4 months ng walang imikan, walang text or calls or kahit na simpleng tingnan lang kami pag nagkakasalubungan kami sa hallway. Parang hindi nila kami kilala, parang nawala lahat ng pinagsamahan namin. Buti nga at naging okay na si Rhicka at Sacheeko. They deserve to be happy, lalo na si bhes. She has been through a lot-- at masaya kami na nakikita namin syang masaya sa piling ni Riki. Isa yun sa mga rason kung bakit hindi pa ako nawawalan ng pag-asa. Deep inside everything will be fine. 

"If you are all thinking that I will go to the airport para pigilan sya.---Nagkakamali kayo. I won't." this time, hindi na umiyak si bhes princess. Ilang months din syang nagmukmok pero miraculously after 3 months parang wala na ring nangyari sakanya. Pero lagi parin syang nagkukulong sa kwarto nya. Pumapasok na sya pero pag nakikita nya si kent noon yuyuko nalang sya at iiyak tapos tatakbo palayo o papasok sa pinakamalapit na room para magtago, pero ngayon taas noo na syang naglalakad pag nakakasalubong nya si Kent. 

"Bhes hindi ka naman namin sinasabihan na pumunta dun para pigilan sya, ang sa amin lang mag-usap kayo one last time. Closure bhes." -Rhicka

"Closure? I don't think we need that anymore." ayoko nang marinig ang mga susunod na sasabihin ni Krishna. "Tama na na nagmukha tayong tanga sa harap nila for a long time. Tama na bhes. Pagod na kami---pagod na pagod na kami ni Princess maghintay kung kelan kami tatawagan o itetext man lang ni Troy at Kent. Alam kong pagod narin yan si Nicole pero hindi lang sya nawawalan ng pag-asa. Pero hindi naman habang buhay kaming makapaghihintay sa kung kelan nila kami itetext at magbibigay ng reason kung bakit nila tayo iniwan sa ere ng ganun ganun nalang. It's very simple. Kent cheated Princess with another girl, maybe Troy and Andrew too but we're just too dumb to see it. Maybe all this time, all those sweet talks and gestures are nothing. Ganun lang talaga sila. They're gansters after all." 

"Just like us." I whispered. I joined this because they are my family, Pero sa mga nangyayari ngayon na  we are all falling apart, ang sakit sakit na eh. I don't think I can take all of this. Krishna's right, nasasaktan na ako masyado, I'm just hoping so much... Na maayos pa namin kaso wala na talaga. 

"I won't talk to him because there's nothing to be talked about. HE CHEATED. Period. He didn't even bother to explain his side of the story. I'm just too dumb to hope that we can still work things out. I will forgive him no matter what happened or why he did that pero wala eh. Wala naman ata talaga syang pakialam. So why bother? Maybe you're right. Everything happens for a reason. And this happened because we're too dumb to believe in fantasies that only happens in books. It's not about happily ever after, It's about being happy, even after." the smile after Princess said that, I know that it's real. This time. Hindi nalang nya pinipilit pero maybe she's really happy na natanggap na nya ang mga nangyari. And now na aalis na si Kent, alam kong mas mapapadali ang pag momove-on nya.

Maybe after all, we're really not meant to be for each other. Troy to Krishna, Kent to Princess, and Andrew to me. 

I guess I just need to accept that everything. 

Andrew, how did I  fall inlove with you?