~It’s been in the past for a while
I get a flash then I smile
Am I crazy?
Still miss you, baby
Harry Styles stood in the room the used to once belong to his boyfriend, Louis Tomlinson. He can’t help think back to all of the good time they had. He smiles for a short period of time and then remembers the reason its empty. It’s been a year since the accident. Ever since that day he can’t help but think about him.
It was real, it was right
But it burned to hot to survive
All that’s left is
All these ashes
There was a fire started in their complex. Everyone evacuated the building. Everyone that is, except for Louis. He couldn’t leave his Superman shirt behind. It was the first thing that him and all of the boys shared. But what he didn’t know was that the ceiling above him was about to callapse. He couldn’t make it out in time. Everyone watched in horror as the building fell, with Louis still inside.
Where does the love go? I don’t know
When it’s all said and done
How could I be losing you forever?
After all the time we spent together
It took Harry a while to realize he was gone. Everything was different with him gone. Niall didn’t eat as much. Liam didn’t bother to wake the other boys up in the morning. And Zayn. Zayn was the worst, besides Harry. He was the closest to Louis. Zayn didn’t even touch his glasses anymore. He didn’t even want to be in the band.
They all tried to remember their happiest moment Louis. It had been their last.
I have to know why I had to lose you
Now you’ve just become
Like everything I’ll never find again
At the bottom of the ocean
Harry couldn’t take it. He needed to think. To be alone. He decided to go to his and Louis’ favorite place. The beach. He remembered when those fangirls tried to flirt with him. Those were good times.
In a dream you appeared
For a while you were here
So I keep sleeping
Just to keep you with me
As soon as Harry got back to the complex, He went straight to his flat and dreamt in his bed. That was the only way he could see Louis. He’d usually stay asleep for as long as He could, just to see him again. For him, those dreams are the best thing to happen to him since the accident.
I’ll draw a map, connect the dots
With all the memories that I’ve got
What I’m missing
I’ll keep reliving
Since the day Harry started dating Louis, he kept a photo album of the two of them. When the fire happened that was the first thing he grabbed. He was glad he did. His best moments with Louis were in there. Every night before bed, he’d look at one of their dates. He wanted to make sure that that was what he dreamt about.
Where does the love go? I don’t know
When it’s all said and done
How could I be losing you forever?
After all the time we spent together
I have to know why I had to lose you
Now you’ve just become
Like everything I’ll never find again
At the bottom of the ocean
This is it
Let go
Breathe
It was right there. He was the only one in the train station. All he had to do was wait for the train to come. As he walked closer to edge, he could hear Louis’ voice in his mind. Saying goodbye to him. Harry never had a chance to say goodbye to him.
You don’t have to love me
For me to, baby, ever understand
Just know of I’ll love the time that we both had
And I don’t ever wanna see you sad, be happy
Here it comes. His one way ticket to happiness. His one way ticket to Louis.
I don’t wanna hold you
If you don’t wanna tell me you love me, babe
Just know I’m gonna have to walk away
I’ll be big enough for both of us to say, be happy
The only thing Louis can do is watch. He has no way of stopping him. He was going to jump, for him, and there was nothing he could do about it. He had never known that Harry loved him enough to commit suicide just to be with him.
Be happy
Be happy
Be happy
Be happy
There he was in a white suit. And there Louis was in a matching suit. Harry looked like an angel. Louis was going to be able to spend the rest of eternity with him. His own angel.
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