Just a feeling (Published)

16. It's all worth it

Ibiza, Spain

"Two rooms?" 

Juan Miguel barged in Reena's hotel suite while feeling apalled by her actions. This was supposed to be a vacation and she booked two rooms for her and for him. Naiinis na talaga siya dito, hindi na niya alam kung anong dapat niyang gawin para lang mapatawad siya ni Reena, he knew that he was a real asshole back then pero hindi ba nito nakikita na sinusubukan niya talaga? He was trying his best to make her see that he really want this. Pero ito naman ang layo nang layo sa kanya. Paano niya maipapapkita dito na ito talaga ang gusto niya kung hindi siya nito binibigyan ng pagkakataon?

"What's wrong?" She asked him. She was using that i-don't-care-at-all tone with him again. He just sighed. Hindi niya alam kung anong meron sa mga tingin ni Reena at madalas siyang matameme ngayon. She just looked so... beautiful and he couldn't deny the fact that he wants her. 

"Paano kung in the middle of the night sumama ang pakiramdam mo? What if you experience spotting again, how am I suppose to know if you're okay?" Hysterical na tanong niya. 

"Ang O.A. mo. Hindi naman ako bata." Sabi nito sa kanya. "Isa pa, I'm here to unwind. Hindi kita papansinin." Walang emosyong wika nito. Napanganga siya. Hindi siya nito papansinin?

"What are you talking about?" He asked. He was feeling really frustrated. "Hanggang kailan mo ba ako gaganituhin?" He asked her. Hindi na talaga niya alam ang gagawin niya dito. Nagawa na yata niya ang lahat, lumuhod na siya sa harapan nito, nagmakaawa na siya ngunit hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin siya nito napapatawad. 

"Just go away Juan Miguel. Ibiza is waiting for me." Inirapan siya ni Reena. Wala siyang maapuhap sabihin dito so he just decided to leave. 

He sighed. Nakayuko siya habang naglalakad patungo sa kanyang silid. Mukhang tototohanin ni Reena na hindi talaga siya nito papansinin habang nagbabakasyon ito. He felt so alone. He had never felt like this in his whole life. Kung pwede lang na i-fast forward ang lahat sa araw o oras kung kailan ay maayos na siya at si Reena ay gagawin niya. 

Totoo naman ang lahat ng sinabi niya dito, gusto niyang maging ama sa magiging anak niya pero mukhang buo na talaga ang isip ni Reena na huwag siyang ipakilala sa bata. 

He sighed again. He went straight to the bed and laid in there. He stared at the ceiling for a while to think. Ano ba ang dapat niyang gawin? He never wanted this to happen. He never thought that one day, his life would change just because of a woman. 

Sa sitwasyon nila ni Reena, parang wala nang tama sa kahit na anong gagawin niya. 

Bigla siyang bumangon at saka kinuha ang kanyang I-pad. He needed to talk to someone, someone who knew him well enough to scold him, someone who he could trust and luckily, that someone was on skype right now, he clicked her name and after a while, they were talking already. 

"Hi, Jules..." Matamlay na bati niya dito. Julia smiled at him at the screen. She waved at him before talking. 

"Why are you sad, Migs?" Tanong nito sa kanya. He sighed. "Is it not a good time?" Tanong pa nito sa kanya. 

"She hates me." Malungkot na wika niya. "I guess the window for talking is closed already. Galit na galit siya sa akin." 

"Teka." Wika nito. "So you're on Spain right now?" Tila nabiglang tanong nito. 

"Oo, hindi ko ba nasabi sa'yo?" 

"No! Oh my god! So finally, you have found the courage to fight for something you love! The lion gained his courage!" She exclaimed. Her face was beaming with so much happiness.