I am happier, happier now
that I have abandoned my rules
rules I have lived by for a century
if it hasn't been even longer
I am tearing them down
one step at a time
piece by piece I untangle
the order I made in my mess
I am casting them away
looking at them all clearer
seeing how they made it worse
having to do all this to hold on
I am happier than I dreamt of
but I am not quite sure about
how much of it is truly true
cause I still get so damn sad
So I am wondering if
my happiness is pretend
I have gotten so good at it
that I can lie even to myself
I am not sure, but for now
it works better for me
than anything else has done
so I choose to believe in it
I am happier, then before
even if it's pretend or not
and I won't give up on it
or to achieve more of it
As I am sure now that I
deserve so much more of it
than I have gotten in my life
I learn how to be happy with me
I am in no need of people
to define me any more
don't need them to feel
something or to care for me
I am my own person
without friend or lovers
to get me to smile
cause I have myself now
I am happier
but not the happiest
I now I could be
so I'll keep going
I am happier
but I wanna be
even more so
I wanna be happy
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Heartstrings (poems)
PoetryThere is always a person out there who will make you heart change its rhythm at any given moment. There are also those people who will needle themselves into your heart so tight that they will never be unattached to it, no matter how far they are. T...
