Moving On
(May 2013)
Children running, smiling, laughing
I watch from the window trying to remember my youth
The girl who played by herself in the woods picking buttercups for her mother
I try to recall the moment I decided I was no longer worthy
To smile and laugh and run
When I decided that I was not worthy.. To breathe
Knife hitting flesh a dull kitchen knife my release
Alcohol to lips a blackout a relief
Body a toy, mind a waste
I wonder after the girl of 6 who loved to play with her toys
When did her mind turn so sour
As to hate the person within
Hiding and moving on
Healing and forgetting
Running at full speed
Falling to numbness
Rebirth of a lost soul
Pictures of my youth are vague
They are blurred images of truth
A destructive force within me
Begging to get loose
I had wished for someone different
Than the person buried in me
To free myself from my burden
Of a life lived in misery
Moving on and past it I am digging deeper now
Remembering not to forget
To love the person I am now
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