Dean's P.O.V.
it's strange
how it feels like someone can just read your mind
even though you have never met this person
that's how it is with cas
i have never talked to this boy in my life
yet, already it feels like he knows everything about me
he told me he calls me beautiful so that i know i'm beautiful
which i responded with a snarky comment
but to be honest
i don't think i'm that beautiful
i look in the mirror and look at every single bad thing about myself
but never the good
i don't know why
but i can't find anything good about myself
my mom died when sammy and i were little
from a house fire
he was 6 months old and i was 4
i know he doesn't remember it
but i do
she was the only one i could talk to
i didn't have a lot of friends when i was little
my mom always thought i should join a sport
to make friends
sammy was too little for me to actually talk too
as for my dad, him and i never saw eye to eye with eachother
he was a good father
but after mom died
he changed
something just clicked in him
he got drunk every night
he would yell at me constantly
but i still never let him yell at sammy
i was a screw up doesn't mean he will be
anyway
after mom died
i was alone
i almost fell into a depression
all the way up till my freshman year
i walked around the schools with my hands in my pockets
and my face hidden in my sweatshirt hoodie
mom always said
their were angels watching over us
so i prayed to them everyday
one day i was praying to the angels
while i was walking in the hallways
with my head down and tears threatening to spill from my eyes
asking the angels for a sign
for some help
begging them to show me how to get over this
or if i should just give up
and then something big, green and white caught my eye
i looked up and saw the cheerleader auditions clip bored in front of me
i thought it was weird since
the place it was at was no where near from where i was supposed to be going
i took that as a sign
and ever since then i have been thanking the angels
i even became a little addicted to find an angel
but i never did
i still look in secret, but not as much as i used too
"beautiful"
cas thinks i'm beautiful
he could just be saying that to make fun of me
i don't think he would do that
but to be honest i don't know
i just met him
that's why
i couldn't wait to find out more about this blue eyed boy
sitting in front of me
at one of the fanciest restaurants i have ever seen
it's a place called "Heaven"
and i will admit
it sure is beautiful, like heaven
i turn to look at cas
"this is such a nice place cas" i tell him
"yeah i know" he says back smiling a little bit
"so..." i say trailing off
i don't know exactly what to say
so i just say the first question that pops into my head
"so, the weather is nice, huh?"
"no" he says
"what?" i ask him, forgetting the question i asked not 2 seconds ago
"we are not going to be like that" he says looking straight into my eyes
i awkwardly look back into his eyes
"what are you talking about?" i ask him
he continues
"we are not going to be that couple that asks 'how the weather is' or 'what has been on the news lately' ok? no, i like you dean, i have never asked out another boy in my life, so this is all new to me, and i don't want this to be just another date, i want this to be special, i want to know everything about you, i want to know the reason why your so beautiful, and i will do the same to you"
he reaches out and grabs my hand smiling
"ok, dean?" he says
"ok cas" i say smiling
"ok" he starts
winking at me
"tell me everything, beautiful"
AUTHORS NOTE:
sorry
short chapter
i know this is weird
sorry
btw thank you guys for all of the nice comments
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