"Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself from saying something that I should have never thought of you..." Why do I do this to myself? I told myself I was done with you. You hurt me, turned me down, ignored me, forgot about me.... How can you talk to every other girl, have full conversations with them, yet talk to me with one word answers. Why is it when you find out I like you, you suddenly like me back. "Maybe kinda a little bit"?
You can't do that! I told myself I was over you. But here you are. And I can't do anything, but awkwardly tell you I'm not interested anymore. And that was that.
Now it's okay to tell me you have a crush on a girl in our class. "Not you" you point out to me. shoving it in my face. Why do I feel like screaming? Why do I give you advice on talking to her, instead of asking you why you didn't like me back sooner? Why do i do this to myself? Why...?
"So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause i'm just trying to be happy"
