Awake, and Unafraid (Frerard, Rikey)

Secrets

Gerard's p.o.v.

Vanessa threw a fit.

"BLACK? WHAT THE FUCK WHO WOULD DO THAT TO ME EVERYONE LOVES ME WHAT?!" She screeched.

I snicker silently.

T is watching with interest.

Alayna is laughing really hard.

Gwen is dying of laughter.

She stomps around and closes the door. We make a break for it and run to the car before she calls the cops on us. I jump into the drivers seat and when everyone is in the car we go as fast as we can.

Alayna and Gwen high five

T is just whispering words

T is amazing, but she can surely scare the shit out of anyone at school.

"Hail Mary, forgive me, blood for blood..." Her voice fades off. Gwen was now staring at her. Alayna was just playing with her hair. I keep driving.

"but does anyone notice? But does anyone care? If I had the guts, to put this to your head?" She says normally.

And if anything mattered if you're already dead?

Wow those are good ideas for songs.

I'll be writing tonight

***

I dropped off T last and drive home.

I go home to hear a squealing Frank and a very red Mikey.

I knocked on Mikey's door and walked in.

Mikey as red as blood. Frank was sitting there with the hugest smile ever.

"What's going on? Is something going to pop out at me or something?" I ask turning around to see if Ray or Bob was behind the door.

"And why is Mikey so red?" I ask chuckling. Mikey turns even more red if that's even possible.

Frank elbows Mikey in the ribs. And Mikey lets out a big breath.

What the fuck is going on?

"Well, your brother got a date!" Frank says beaming.

What

Did

He

Just

Say

"What?" I ask, stunned.

Mikey gives me a death stare.

"I'm going to the movies with Ray..." He says like it's no big deal.

"Since when do you like Ray?" I ask.

He shrugs.

"The first time he saw him, because he's perfect in every way." Frank mocks In a girls voice. Mikey play punches him.

"I don't sound like that...." Mikey says blushing.

"Yes you do." He says.

"That's great..." I say with tears in my eyes.

I walk out of the room, and slam the door.

I hear muffling voices coming from the other room.

I can't have Mikey cry over another boy, especially Ray... Ray is a ray of sunshine. I don't want him to hurt Ray.. I mean, if they hate each other it will be really awkward at lunch... I'll be the one communicating for them. I don't want to do that, I don't want to do that and then I'll have to- why can't ANYONE like me? Why can't Frank see that I'm available and were perfect for each other! I mean, why can't he be gay? Maybe he is gay but hasnt come out yet... Why can't I just have a boyfriend? Why can't I ever be happy? Why am I even alive? Maybe I should just give up... Maybe I should try-