I don't know what it is. I just.....don't get happiness. I start to have "feelings" for someone, but then i push them away. After that, I set and think did i ever truly "love" this person. But then I'm afraid of being alone, so i get wuth thr first person the comes along, and then when someone new pops up and they're better then who I'm with I'm to weak to leave them. Then I'm just..........unhappy...
