How could you?

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A/n: feel this song sm so i decided to write a oneshot! Enjoyyyyy

Summary:pt2

Wc: 722

Warnings: toxic rs
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"Alright Y/n that's it." My producer Anthony says, pausing the song.

"Woah, it sounds amazing." I say, so proud of what I just heard.

"It'll be an amazing addition to the album. You thought about it being the lead single?" He questions curiously.

"I don't know yet but yeah maybe." I shrug my shoulders.

"Alright well I'll get going then." He smiles at me as I nod. He gets up taking his coat and walking out of my studio.

I release a deep sigh sinking back into the couch. The song we just finished is called 'How could you?' and it's definetley the most vulnerable I've ever been in any of my songs.

The song describes the toxic relationship between my ex Sarah and I. It took a lot for me to even write this song and it took triple that time to actually record since I couldn't get through it without crying.

My head snaps to the door of the studio and I'm met with my girlfriends warm smile.

"Hey baby." Hailee smiles, pecking my lips before taking a seat next to me. "How did the session go?"

"Good, we finally finished 'How could you'?" I answer.

"That's good. Can I listen to it?" The brunette asks.

"Uhm, sure why not." I shrug my shoulders.

"What's it about?" She asks, as I sit on the chair which is closer to the computer that contains the final song.

"Uhm, Sarah." I nervously answer.

"Oh." Hailee sighs. "You okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine babe." I nod without looking at her. "Alright ready?"

"Ready." She confirms.

The familiar melody fills my ears as the song begins. I sink into my chair my heart thumping against my chest as I think what Hailee's reaction will be like.

You said you were sober
So I let you come over
Your words pulled me closer
But your words fuck me over
I kept on denyin'
So you kept on tryin'
You went too far for closure
Too far fucked me over

I could just lie here, say, "It's okay"
When I wanna rip all the doors off this place
Set it on fire and just walk away
So I can feel anything else but this weight
'Cause I let you in when I needed space
And you crossed a line when I pushed you away
How could you? How could you?

Oh, I more than regret you
You'vе convinced yourself I let you
Thе better version of me never met you
Never let you in my bedroom
Oh, all those shitty lines and crooked blinds
And cheap red wine stains
Threaten suicide to change my mind
And keep me afraid

You want me to lie here, and say, "It's okay"
When I wanna rip all the doors off this place
Set it on fire and just walk away
So I can feel anything else but this weight
'Cause I let you in when I needed space
And you crossed a line when I pushed you away
How could you? How could you?

I once loved a liar
'Cause she knew my name
Would rewrite the story
And make me to blame
How could you?

The outro stops and I feel a tear slide down my cheek. I turn my head around to see my girlfriend in tears. She offers me a weak smile opening her arms.

"Wow." She says as I crawl into her arms. "That was fucking amazing baby."

"Thanks you." I sniffle hugging her tighter.

"I could hear your voice breaking baby. That must have been hard to write and perform." She says running her hands through my hair soothingly. I nod into her unable to form any words. "I'm so proud of you honey."

"I love you so much." I whisper feeling more tears stream down my cheeks at those words.

"I love you more than anything baby."
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A/n: any thoughts???? Ik it wasnt that long but oh well. Anyhow. Don't forget to comment and vote! I love yall!until next time stay safe and take care of urself! Byeeeeeeee!

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