JJ Maybank Imagines

Heather

Hey guys sorry I haven't written at all in a while, I've been busy and honestly so drained and I've just had bad writers block, so when I had the thought to write this I thought I better hurry up before I get writers block again. I've been talking to my crush and we've become friends but he told me that he likes this one girl so now I don't have a chance w/ him but I still like him, anyways thanks for listening to me yap and dump.<3
Y/ns POV:
I really thought I had a chance, a dying hope that I had a chance with JJ. Sure I'm not pretty, I'm weird, I'm so awkward and I can't seem to get anything right, but I thought just maybe after all of my past failed attempts I would finally find someone, I guess not.

I've liked JJ for a while now and I've never told him that I have, I thought he might have gotten a hint but I guess not, or maybe he did and just is being friendly. We talk everyday, and we hang out with each other, never alone though, it's always with mutual friends. I still remember that exact date that he gave me his sweater because I was cold, my delusional little brain thought that this was a sign that maybe, just maybe he liked me back. It was just polyester but I didn't care it was just fuel to my imaginations.

But I see how his eyes wander as she walks by, her fluffy light brown hair, her flawless makeup, her soft smile, her sweet perfume. I can feel myself die a little when your eyes follow her in all of her beauty. How stupid enough could I be that I thought he would like me out of all people. I knew that he liked her, but I still loved him, I never could seem to get it in my head that he's never gonna want me, I told myself this every night but I somehow still had a crush on him.

They'll probably start talking soon, possibly even dating and I'll have to go through the same cycle over again, failing the talking stage, getting crushed, accepting it, then finding someone else to do the cycle with. I guess that's why they call crushes,crushes because you get crushed when they don't like you back, but our feeble little brains still go through the process, can't seem to get that not everyone will like us, that they'll  have their own crushes that aren't you.

The human brain is both a blessing and a curse they can mess us up when we need them most, but people are like that too. Someday I might find the guy who connects with me, who likes me back, and maybe I never will find that person, maybe I'm just destined to be a lone traveler in this great big universe.

Ok y'all I know this was pretty cheesy but I just felt like I had to get my feelings out, for anyone going through the same thing as me,I feel you, I can't exactly promise that it would get better but I hope it does. Sorry again for dumping. :/