Maybe people are actually right. I'm not mentally stable. Idk what do tbh. And at this point I'm so very tired.
I'm ashamed to say this but I've lost all willingness to survive. Life has become bitter and now even the motivation of a better life ahead isn't working. It's like i have one only option. Death. I'm not scared i just don't want to make a mess. I've been holding on i swear but I'm genuinely at the edge now. I'll probably suffer in afterlife but I'll be saved from the daily taunts, disappointing people and begging people to stay.
Once I'm gone I'll not have to think about what will I do to get him back, how do I study better or how do I not be a disappointment to everyone.
I tried to study this time but just prior to the exam my relationship issues started, another person came in between, I had to hear harsh words everyday. I grew so restless and messed up and I'm getting the results now.
But i honestly have lost the hope. I've lost the courage. Maybe I am a coward but i can't hold on any longer. I don't think so. Even if I do I won't feel anything. I've lost all senses, all feelings. I feel nothing now. I'm sorry if I do anything wrong. I just had no other way
