How it happened. How it's going.

2 days before

Its tough to say I remember the exact day it happened a lot of it was a blur, I remember feeling very distant, cold, just didn't want to be around anyone, I went to school everyone is asking if I'm okay but before I can say anything they just change the subject and I carry on with the conversation along with the day. I couldn't shake this feeling I had this fear in my head that everyone around me somehow knows how I'm feeling and are making fun of me I know it's not true but being as young as I was, i didn't know what I know now. The end of the day comes I sit in my room with just the tv on, it's dark I'm watching cartoons, I'm hungry but I don't eat feeling as if I don't deserve it. I look around my room and feel like everything is hopeless. I lay down staring at the ceiling wondering why I am feeling this way, wondering why I have this voice in my head, wondering... "when will it end".