Forever and Always

Chapter sixteen

***Luke's POV***

By the time my room was completely destroyed, so were my hands. Seeing the blood on my hands scared me to death. I didn't want to go from using women to being abusive or angry all the time, but deep down I guess I knew this was a one time thing. Standing up and looking at the aftermath felt almost like slow motion. My once nice looking room now looked like it had been hit by a hurricane.

"Luke we heard banging is everything okay?" I heard a voice yelling with a panicked tone as the door whipped open. As my eyes met those of Calum and the rest of the gang, time seemed to speed back up, and that's when for the first time in 3 months, I actually let all the pain flood out of my body.

Tears began to flow out of my eyes like a waterfall, and all I could think to do was sit on my bed and hold my head in my hands. It's weird you know, like these past few months, yes I've cried and felt the pain of losing her but never really to this extent. I kept it in, I tried so hard just to suck it up, hold it in and be a man.

But hurting the people around you and using women is in no way 'being a man'.

And I guess only at this moment is when I was able to actually see that. Being a man does not mean that you always have to be strong like a brick wall... Because not only is that not being a man, but it's not being human either.

So I guess it's time for stage three... Healing.

This stage is going to be extremely hard - maybe even impossible. But I have to try, not only for me, but my friends and Nikki. There is a lot of healing that needs to be done. And it's not just my emotional state, and the wounds on my hands, but also the friendships I have broken by being a dick.

And I think that project heal... should start right now...

"I-I'm so sorry, I've been so terrible to you guys recently." I weeped.

There was a strong silence that enveloped the room. But finally after the silence started to become unbearable, it was stopped by the sound of feet shuffling around the room.

I kept my head down, knowing it would be unbearable to watch the only people I could possibly have left walk away when I need them the most. But something took me by surprise.

I felt the bed dip all around me, and within seconds there were a couple pairs of arms wrapped around my body. At that moment, a large amount of weight was lifted off my chest.

"Dude, it's okay... Everything is going to be okay. Just promise us that you'll never do... this again." Michael said from behind me, as he pointed at my disastrous room.

"Yeah, I'm sorry about that... well this. I just cracked." I said with a small chuckle, causing everyone else to laugh along with me as well.

There is still a lot of things that we all need to talk about. And I guess that we all have a feeling that I will screw up again. But no matter what happens, all I know is that I have the best friends in the world.  

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