Gustak Dil ❤️

Tere hoke, tere nahi

He walked towards Bondita and held her hand and took her inside into his study and locked the door from inside.

He pinned her to the wall and glared with anger into her teary eyes.

Anirudh: kyu ye zid kar rahi ho tum Bondita? Chali kyu nahi jaati ?

Bondita: ap chahte hai kya ki apki Bondita jaye yaha se?

Anirudh started into her her eyes holding the word "no" in him with much difficulty.

He left her and turned around.

Anirudh: tum samajh kyu nahi rahi ho Bondita? Ab hum kabhi pass nahi aa sakte , ab hum kabhi bhi pehele jaise nahi ho sakte.

Bondita: par kyu Sakha Babu? Ap jante hai? Inn 8 saalon mein ek din, ek pal aisa nahi gaya jab maine apko yaad na kiya ho. Jab bhi hostel ka daakiya ata tab humesha maine apki chitthi ka intezar Kiya hai, khud kitni chitthiya likhi apko, par kabhi ek ka bhi jawab nahi mila. Kyu Sakha Babu? Kya apki ye Bondita inn 8 saalon mein apke liye itni paraiee ho gaiee?

Anirudh stood their silent like a stone.

Bondita moved in front of him, meeting his gaze.

Bondita: Jawab dijiye Sakha Babu...kya mai apke liye kuch bhi nahi?

Anirudh huffed.

Anirudh: Bondita jo ye 8 saal ki dooriyan humare beech aaie hai na, inn dooriyon ne sab uthal futal kar ke rakh diya, aur ab chachu bhi na...tab bhi tum mere liye meri ek dus...dushmaan se zyada kuch nahi ho sakti.

Bondita stared at him unbelievably.

Bondita: Ye ap kya keh rahe hai Sakha Babu? ap acchi tarah se jaante hai ki apki Bondita apni jaan dedegi par apke viruddh kabhi nahi jayegi

Anirudh: tum chaho na chaho Bondita par hum humesha ek dusre ke virudh he rahenge. Chali jao yaha se, tum Krishna Nagar se ho aur ab humare beech koi rishta nahi ho sakta.

Bondita: Agar ye baat hai toh mai Krishna nagar ko chhodti hu, ab toh ap mujhe apnayege na?

Anirudh got shocked and looked into her eyes.

Anirudh: Sabkuch Chhod kar aa jaogi mere paas? Kis adhikar se?
Kya adhikar hai tum pe mera ya mujh pe tumhara?

Bondita looked into his eyes.

Bondita: nahi janti...kis hak se sab chhod kar aau, mai nahi janti, bas itna janti hu, ye duriyon wale 8 saal maine issi umeed mein guzare hai ki inn 8 saalon ke baad humare beech koi duri nahi hogi aur apne bhi sirf 8 saalon ki duriyon ki guru dakshina mangi thi mujhse...

Anirudh turned away from her hiding his tears and Bondita's eyes also became watery.

Bondita: Sakha Babu...iss Dushmani ka toh kabhi koi zikr he nahi tha humari kahani mein, toh mujhe iss Dushmani ka hissa kyu bana rahe hai ap?

Anirudh remained silent blowing out the air from his mouth and then started speaking again trying to be as stern as he can.

Anirudh: Bondita ab tum chaho na chaho tum iss Dushmani ka hissa ho.

Bondita smiled sarcastically.

Bondita: Yakeen nahi araa ye soch ke ki jo Sakha Babu kabhi apni Bondita keliye duniya se lad jate the, apne pariwar se lad jaate the Aaj vo ussi ke saath dushmani ki baate kar rahe hai.

Anirudh: tum mano na mano ab ye kismat ka likha hai Bondita.

Bondita: aur meri kismat mujhe mere haathon se likhna sikhaya hai apne aur jab tak mai apne haathon se apni kismat likh rahi hu tab tak ap mere Sakha Babu hai, mere apne hai koi dushman nahi.

Anirudh: tumhare keh dene se sab kuch tumhare hisab se nahi hoga Bondita.

Bondita: ye dushmani mujhe apse dur nahi rakh sakti Sakha Babu, ab mujhe kisi bhi haad tak kyu na jana pade par mai wapas apne Sakha Babu ko apne paas laa ke rahugi.

Anirudh turned towards her in anger.

Anirudh: tumhare Sakha Babu ab mujh mein kahi zinda hai he nahi toh wapas kaha se laogi? Ye sab band karo Bondita aur laut jao.

Bondita: mai apse dur nahi jaugi, humare beech Krishna Nagar hai na toh theekh hai mai Krishna nagar nahi lautugi.

Anirudh looked at her with shock.

Bondita: mai ek barrister hu , Karmachari keliye jo ghar milte hai mai vaha rahugi, kisi hostel mein reh lugi, par Krishna nagar nahi lautugi.

Anirudh: mat bhulon tumhari maa bhi hai, unke baremein socha hai kabhi? Mere liye tum apna sabkuch nahi chhod sakti Bondita.

Bondita: ap bhi toh mere liye puri duniya ke virrudh chale gaye the! Aur raha sawal maa ka toh mai jaha bhi rahugi, unke saath rahugi, par apse dur...nahi rahugi.

Anirudh: Ye gaon Wale kabhi bhi tumhe yaha chain se rehene nahi denge Bondita.

Bondita: toh bechaini ke saath reh lugi, par mai yaha ruk Rahi hu.

Anirudh: tumhe kuch ho gaya toh?

Bondita smiled with confidence.

Bondita: ap mujhe kuch hone nahi denge

Anirudh: ab yaha kuch bhi pehele jaisa nahi hai Bondita.

Bondita: Sab kuch pehele jaisa ho jayega, mera vishwaas hai.

Anirudh looked into her eyes, the eyes that depicted so strong confidence, the eyes that had some sought of madness into it and that madness was none other than love.

Love...that was seen in her behaviour, love...that probably she hasn't realised yet, love...that somewhere he too has for her and the love...he can never reciprocate.

Anirudh:(pov) Ye dushmani humare beech ek bohot badi Deewar hai Bondita aur mai chahu bhi tab bhi ye deewar kabhi nahi mit sakti. Jo tum chahati ho, vo nahi ho sakta Bondita, mai tumhara hu par mai tumhara nahi ho sakta.

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