a girl who received the heartbreaking truth that proved her entire life as a lie and all who she believed in left her side leaving her vulnerable and devastated
This truth came with a decision that had never been even in her vaguest thoughts of her...
MEERAB As the sun shined on my face making temporary peace which has been offered to me by the medicine go away with a beam straight disturbing me
As my my eyes fluttered open I thoroughly hoped that all of the yesterday's events were a really really big LIE .
But as my eyes opened, and I saw the opulent roof of the khan villa which gave me the reality check that all I had discovered yesterday was true and my life had turned for the worst
It was like cold bucket of water on me as I so wanted to disbelief everything yet every object and event was proving the very thing I wanted to deny
AUTHOR
meerab got up from her bed and went to freshen up to remove all marks of the meerab she had lost
she stood in front of the mirror looking at herself and remembered a poetry which she had read which didn't make sense to her yet now every word had threshold of her state like mirza ghalib had once been said
"na kar apne dard e dil ko shayaari main ae ghalib
log aur toot jaatey har alfaaz ko apni dastaan samj kar "
(don't write the pain of your heart into poetry oh ghalib, people break more by thinking every word as their story )
the poetry goes by:
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MEERAB
every line goes with my heart as if in sync , the painful reminiscing is tearing apart every chamber of my heart , every thought has done nothing except elicit pain in my bosom
as I pick up my phone as the grief becomes unbearable for me to keep in the ravels of my already overflowing heart
I see saba's contact and feel to call her and share this agony which I want to tear apart from my anatomy yet a thought stops me from doing so
"kya bologi saba ko , apne kis naam se usse apna taruf karogi tum to woh rahi hi nahi jo tum thi"
"tum to waqas ahmed ki beti hi nahi ho "
"tumhara wajood hi ek jhoot hain "
all of this is making feel so vulnerable and weak and my state in previous years or even the previous day that I had witnessed
I was never weak and vulnerable , I was that person who was injured at many points as life usually does take turns and twists
but those injuries were never the cause of weakness, they made me feel strong and motivated to not give up
but just one day changed everything , my tears are a waste , my dreams that I had sewn all my life were now a story that had ended unfulfilled
AUTHOR
In the moment of vulnerability and in the height of emotions , There was a man watching as his heart cried for His daughter
and the daughter saw a man who was her culprit , the guilty of her broken dreams and the person who thought her as the murderer of her own mother when she was an innocent infant
MEERAB
In front of me of was the man who was my supposed father , whose blood runs in my veins , whose genes were in me .
yet these biological facts didn't overpower the fact that this person right here was the one who saw in me his wife's murderer at a time when I didn't have even the knowledge of my existence
This man left his responsibilities as a father and threw me away and I was handed to the people who used me as a toy who played and nurtured me and now when I needed them the most , they left me and threw me away as I , now was also unwanted
My whole life these people treated as a football who had no owner , no permanent residence , and most important of all no identity
AUTHOR
Anwar approached Meerab as he now understood the grave mistake he had done when he disowned himself from his paternal duties
He wanted meerab to forgive him as he couldn't bear now his daughter , his nadia's last heirloom away and distant from him
he asked "Kkaisi Ho beta ?"
"kyun aaye hain yaha ? KYUN!"
"main baap ho tumhara"
"Baap , ..... Baap bulane ke layak bhi kya aap "
"ya wo insaan hain aap jisne apni hi beti ko apni hi maan ki qatil samjha hain
wo insaan hi hain aap baap nahi kabhi nahi "
"maaf kardo , maaf kardo " anwar said crying vehemently
"ek baar tumhare muh se apne liye baba sunna chahta hoon"
"kon baap , woh baap jo kal tak meray baba they aur aaj nahi "
"maafi aur maafi , meri zindagi ko tahes nahes karke main apko maafi do"
"meray paas kuch nahi bacha hain , meri ha cheez jhoth thi , mera koi wajood nahi "
"jaye yaha se , Jayeee!"
anwar left the room and outside cried his heart out and inside meerab had cried her share of tears
on the other side of the house waqas and anila also had a sorrow which their heart was bursting off
they shed tears as the always had wanted children but didn't have any of their own but when shahnawaz offered meerab to waqas and anila their heartiest wishes came true and they got meerab ,their world , their lovely child
but now all was lost and they couldn't stop it , their meerab who they never even let her shed a tear was now in tears as her companion but they couldn't stop it nor comfort her
Maa begum approached them and gave them the truth that both couldn't accept yet the had no other option then to do so
Maa begum advised them to go back to karachi as if meerab kept seeing them she wouldn't agree to the marriage
waqas and anila kept heavy hearts and left as they knew they had no right on meerab and she was a khan and their daughter
as they were leaving maternal heart of anila was shattered at leaving her daughter behind and waqas had never felt so helpless and incapable in his life as he couldn't do anything for the light of his heart
meerab was informed by one of the maids of their departure
meerab was shocked as she contemplated her parents the people who she had thought as her own to be so selfish
she ran out of her room as she wanted see them one last time hug them
she ran and saw the car going away
she saw her everything crumble into fine dust
she saw her dream shattered into smithereens that no architect could ever make again
she saw nothing but pain, betrayal at heights and she saw the breach of her trust and faith to a level she never imagined
A/N this chap was tough it was the height of emotions and thank you for all the love you have given to this fanfic your motivation is really important for me
