How does it feels ?

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How does it feels to be loved?
How does it feels when someone cares for you?
How does it feels to look at the mirror and smile what you see for once?
How does it feels to have true friends?
How does it feels to have the enchanting love story like movies?
How does it feels to be special?
How does it feels when someone looks at you with that heart eyes?
How does it feels to smile for real?
How does it feels when someone gives you a warm comforting hug?
How does it feels when you have someone who can love you as you are?
How does it feels when someone gives you a shoulder to cry on?
I don't know really

Honestly,all my life all I thought I was loved but no I was just so imbecile.
I never felt love my definition of love was darkness and pain cause that was what I recieved.
The feelings of love, warmth, genuine care was all foreign to me.
I was so alone that sometimes I found the walls interesting,the streets enchanting and darkness alluring.
I am scared that I am so alone that If someone shows me a little love I became so emotional and vulnerable.
I know I am sensitive but it's just how I am .
A person who is not used to warmth and love.

I act like everything was fine but only I knew how much I am broken inside.
I act like I don't care for them but only I knew how much I cried for them.
I act like I am confident but only I knew how much my hands were shivering.
I act like I am living but only I knew how much dead I am Inside.
Only my heart knows how much times it get betrayed
Only my eyes knows how much tears they were holding
Only my shoulders knows how much burden it was carrying
Only I knew how much I am holding myself to just end everything.
But I will be fine right?
The darkness loves me right?
We all are living right?

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