Ever get that feeling
Deep in the pit of your stomach?
You know.
You mistake it as butterflies
But really it feels like
Someone shoved a knife in your gut.
The pain you feel
When you wake up all alone
Screaming because you want someone to hold.
Yeah,
I know that feeling.
When you feel like you're at your lowest
And nothing seems to lift your spirits.
When you feel like nothing on Earth
Even cares about your existance.
You keep pacing your room,
Looking at your phone,
Praying someone will call
Leave you a message
Telling you they love you
Or even miss you.
But nothing comes.
You can't force the will of others.
They only act when they want to.
It's the feeling of emptiness
That you can't get over.
That your life has no meaning
To anyone else.
It's when you know
You have fend for yourself.
Pick yourself back up
And go against the tide of pain.
Because in the end
The only thing that matters
IS yourself.
You can have all the friends in the world
And still feel this kind of pain.
You have to live for yourself
And let go of everything else.
Cry.
Get it out of your system
Because the only one feeling sorry for you
IS yourself.
Everyone needs a good cry every once in a while.
It's how I kept myself sane
Through all the heart ache,
Torture,
And pain.
Because you can't truly feel pain
Until you get that feeling.
The feeling of being alone.
I like to call it
The deep emptiness.
No matter what you do,
That feeling of a knife in your gut,
You can't avoid it.
