I A m E m o t i o n a l .

A r g u i n g .

Want to sink in my bed

Tears from eyes fled

To just disappear

Left with nowhere to go

Lost in music block out the world with my earphones

Arguing like their daily routine

Words like missiles destroys itself and what lays near

Hurt emotionally not physically trying to stay out of the clear

Wouldn't be the first time

Want to hide

Not picking sides

Locking themselves in the closet leaving me outside

Can still hear their raging voices that lays on the inside

Try to act it off like everything's okay

There's nothing left to say

But to just listen

Maybe hear what you're a missing

Speak to get a different person

Know why they fight the reason

Nothing I can do

Brother knows too

Desperation clawing at my chest

Tearing me apart leave me rest

I can try and recover

And not cry a river

I never had for that reason

Wouldn't be recent

Ever since I was a small child about well since I could remember

They would always argue and lash out him at her

Always been this way

I know its not okay

But there's nothing I can do

I am without a clue

Fear mingled with sorrow

Just want to huddle into a ball in a burrow

Want to help my mother

I ask if she's alright

She says fine after they already had their big fight

Usually ends with my father slamming the door shut

Left mother in mid sentence words cut

Or simply him muttering profanites under his breath

Gritted are his teeth

With a frustrated anger

At her

Her eyes often drift off into elsewhere

Used to often dye the color of her hair

Now just leaves it as it is

Wears it like an emblem of amiss

An amiss of her happiness

Make-up used to caress

Brung out her distinctive features and eyes

Now just wears it like a mask of lies

Mother's unraveled tears

Father's already drank beers

Lay inthe future of despair

While their children don't have any say

They split but why how is that okay?

The married pair

How much longer will they last?

Will it all be in the past?

Disappeared yet again to the closet of discussions

Right on time for their many sessions

Wake up in the morning

Profanites and brutal words of chastisement in the air menacing

Try and go back to sleep

They don't know I'm awake just another secret for me to keep

Same at night

Faces bright

With anger intertwined with anxiety in their eyes light

Just tightly wrap myself in my covers

Leaving only a sliver

Little crevice from the sheets to breathe

Tightly shut my teeth

When enountered with such things

A fight of queens and kings

Clench my body tight

Curl up in a ball know it ain't right

But I just can't take it anymore

Eachtime at me it tore

Find myself sleeping in

Bound to my bed pinned

The day they get a divorce

Will feel worse

To choose where the kids of the former couple may go

Which of the pair gains custody

Who goes where we don't know

With a madness that drives us all

One by one we fall

Dominoes in an orderly fashion

Wound open and gaping red

How will it be healed once again?

Just lay down

In tears drown

Eyes droopy eyelids heavy

Feeling drowsy

Body gave up finally dosed off to sleep

Counting little white sheep

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I know the song "I'm Not Okay (I Promise)" by My Chemical Romance doesn't quite fit for the poem.I just decided to put it in with all the saying of "I'm not okay" along with me being a HUGE fangirl of MCR.So yea,if you don't like mcr or the song or sincerely both,then don't press to play it.

~Just a little A/N from well..me