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Icecream.

Sorry I haven't written anything in like... 3 months.

𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐏𝐨𝐯:

Today was a boring day, mostly like.. Always.
I was just minding my own business, I guess- Before! My friend gave me a little visit, oh- well, I don't know if they consider me as a friend- I barely know them and all this that happened just sounds.. Wrong. It's like it's not real and I don't mean that It isn't real because he's an angel. But nothing seems real, like it's a scrappy book written by a child, Like it's a 𝘑𝘰𝘬𝘦. I'm quite-

"𝑌/𝑁!" Gabriel snaps their fingers in front of my face to wake me up, or something like that.

"Ah- my apologies, I zoned out." I said my voice filled with guilt

"𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡'𝑠 𝑎𝑙𝑟𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡, 𝑛𝑜 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑠. 𝑀𝑎𝑦 𝐼 𝑎𝑠𝑘 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔, 𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ? 𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑒𝑒𝑚𝑒𝑑 𝑞𝑢𝑖𝑡𝑒 𝑑𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑡." Gabriel smiles and clasps his hands together, while tilting his head a little.

"Oh- No, no, it's nothing. " I dusted myself off and made a 'come here' sign while walking towards the door.

"𝐴𝑟𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑒? 𝐼 𝑜𝑓 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑠𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑜𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑟 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑢𝑛𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑎𝑏𝑙𝑒 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡𝑠𝑜𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟, 𝐵𝑢𝑡 𝐼 𝑎𝑚 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑐𝑒𝑟𝑛𝑒𝑑 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑤𝑒'𝑟𝑒 𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑠 𝑎𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑎𝑙𝑙." He said in a sweet sickening tone. I immediately stopped when the words 'We're friends' came out of his mouth. I was silent for a few moments before speaking.

"You consider me as a friend?" I asked quietly looking over at Gabriel who had a slight frown on their face.

"𝑊𝑒𝑙𝑙, 𝑜𝑓 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑠𝑒 𝐼 𝑑𝑜. 𝐴𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠 𝑤𝑒 𝑤𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼 ℎ𝑒𝑙𝑝𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑛𝑑.. 𝑊𝑒'𝑟𝑒 𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑠, 𝑛𝑜? 𝐷𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑠𝑖𝑑𝑒𝑟 𝑚𝑒 𝑎𝑠 𝑎 𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑?"

"I do!" I said. "It just feels wrong, It feels quite weird since we just became friends so fast, why did I have to be chosed to be friends with you? Didn't you deserve someone better? Someone that can make you happy and such? I'm just a boring human, I'm pathetic and I know it, everyone does, so why did I have to be friends with you? You're so special and amazing, I'm nothing at all yet here we are hanging out."

"..." Gabriel went silent for some moments, Did I say wrong things? Oh, of course I did I just asked him why we're friends, maybe he doesn't feel comfortable with being called special or something like that, maybe he wants to be treated normally and I messed up, Maybe-

"𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑡𝑜𝑝 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡." They said. I looked down guilt and panick dripping from my face. Was he mad? Why am I like this, oh goodness, I'm always messing things u-
Gabriel grabbed my shoulders and turned me around to face him. "𝑌/𝑁, 𝑊𝑒 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑓𝑓𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛, 𝑛𝑜 𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑑𝑖𝑑." Gabriel pointed at me, I mean kinda just booped my nose "𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑑𝑖𝑑 𝑛𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑤𝑟𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑙𝑙, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑖𝑛 𝑠𝑢𝑐ℎ 𝑎.. 𝐷𝑒𝑠𝑝𝑎𝑖𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑤𝑎𝑦- 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑑𝑖𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑑𝑜 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑒 𝑎 𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑, 𝑦𝑒𝑠, 𝐼 𝑚𝑎𝑦 𝑏𝑒 𝑑𝑖𝑓𝑓𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑛𝑡 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 ℎ𝑢𝑚𝑎𝑛𝑠 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑑𝑜𝑒𝑠𝑛'𝑡 𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑛𝑜𝑤, 𝑑𝑜𝑒𝑠 𝑖𝑡? 𝐵𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑖𝑓 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑟𝑒𝑐𝑒𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑓𝑓𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛 𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑐𝑎𝑛'𝑡 𝑠𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑦 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑛𝑜 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑔𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑎𝑓𝑓𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛, 𝑖𝑡'𝑠 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑖𝑓 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑟𝑒 𝑎 𝑏𝑜𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑜𝑛 𝑜𝑟 𝑛𝑜𝑡, 𝐼 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 ℎ𝑜𝑤 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑟𝑒, 𝑛𝑜 𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑖𝑓 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑟𝑒 𝑡𝑎𝑙𝑙, 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑟𝑡, 𝑏𝑜𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑔, 𝑓𝑢𝑛, 𝑐𝑟𝑎𝑧𝑦, 𝑞𝑢𝑖𝑒𝑡, 𝑠𝑐𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑑, 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑓𝑖𝑑𝑒𝑛𝑡, 𝑒𝑡𝑐. 𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑑𝑜𝑒𝑠𝑛'𝑡 𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟, 𝑖𝑡 𝑑𝑜𝑒𝑠𝑛'𝑡 𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑙𝑙. 𝐵𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑒𝑠𝑛'𝑡 𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑦 𝑎𝑟𝑒? 𝑁𝑜, 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑒𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑓𝑟𝑒𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑣𝑒𝑠 𝑎𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑜𝑛𝑒, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖𝑡'𝑠 𝑠𝑎𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑝𝑒𝑜𝑝𝑙𝑒 𝑐𝑎𝑛'𝑡 𝑑𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑓𝑒𝑎𝑟. 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑚𝑦 𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑. 𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑖𝑡 𝑑𝑜𝑒𝑠𝑛'𝑡 𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑖𝑓 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑟𝑒 ℎ𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑜𝑟 𝑙𝑜𝑤𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛 𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑠, 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑟𝑒 𝑚𝑦 𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑟𝑒." Gabriel hugged me. I hugged him back, snuggling my head to his shoulder or something like that, I suppose. I was really touched by that, because I never thought I deserve any sort of affection, but now that they tell me it their way.. Maybe I just need someone to lead me for a little, I was very lost in life, afterall.

𝐁𝐨𝐧𝐮𝐬!

Me and Gabriel went buying Icecream, yay! we just took out icecreams and sat on a bench the sunshine being visible from in between the trees. We were in a empty park, surprisingly the icecream van didn't kidnap us, not that they could anyway- We were just eating the icecream while talking before I just quickly put my icecream to his face and pulled it a way, Gabriel also quickly pulled away. The tip of his nose now had a little bit of icecream on it, shakjshskakaJzk Gabriel wiped his nose and started laughing, I laughed with him. After like 2 minutes of talking Gabriel shoved his icecream in my face freaking putting half of his icecream in my damn face, No, that wasn't cute or funny, I couldn't freaking breathe 😶- Gabriel finally pulled the icecream away my nose being all full of icecream, I shed a tear because it was cold, poor me.
(𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐚 𝐫𝐞𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐚 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐲 𝐬𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫, 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐥𝐟 𝐨𝐟 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐢𝐜𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦 𝐨𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐧𝐨𝐬𝐞.)

𝐒𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐝𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐒𝐚𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐭, 𝐌𝐲 𝐦𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐲𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐭 𝐦𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐢𝐝𝐝𝐥𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐛𝐢𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐢𝐧 𝐦𝐞. 𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐝𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐲𝐞𝐭.